The Era of Dynasty Ming

Busy weekend!!

2012-02-10T15:52:00.001+08:00

1) LJMU dinner tonight to attend. Not sure I'm attending or not. Today's work load and stress has been hectic for me. Head hurts man when you have to solve people's problem every time in a long hours run.

2) a friend from Malacca is coming over to stay at my place since Potter's birthday is tomorrow. I WANNA GO .. Got to get my room ready for him to stay

3) Potter's birthday is tomorrow. Got to think what to get for her 25th birthday !!! Oh my god....can I make it ???? Paintball competition ?? Friend coming over, LJMU dinner !!??

4) Paintball competition is tomorrow morning. Got to get all my guns and gears ready. Haven even started servicing them yet.

Timing is tight. I mean paintball competition can last a whole day and looks like tonight is my only time to faster get Potter's present and also to get everything ready.....my gears....my room for my friend and finally......my self to mentally prepared for the war dt !!!

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT !!!!!

Happy Chap Goh Mei 2012 !!

2012-02-07T03:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHAP GOH MEI !!! also known as the Chinese Valentines Day !!! XD

Just came back from another adventure with friends that we know for more than 15 years ago since primary times. So much weird, funny, wacko stuffs took place on that 2 days 1 night trip to Cameron Highland. XD
Will definitely blog about it soon......Just so much to talk about when I have the photos edited and ready for display XD

Cameron Highland Photos ain't out just yet......

You gotta wait till its ready babes !!!

After coming back from Cameron Highland Trip, on the very same time, I straight away managed to find 2 dates to go for a nice dinner and chit chat along. Potter & Shiomaru was kinda bored at home, thus we decided to go on a double date kinda thing XD

The 2 Bestie Friend
take 1

The 2 Besties Friend !
take 2

Camwhore With potter

Camwhore with Shiomaru

Buffalo Steakhouse on my treat !

Potter with her sizzling Chicken Chop Dish

Shiomaru with her Fish Chip

After the dinner, we drop by to my place and just talk about the things that we missed and did not see each other for quite some time. Shiomaru has a new hair do. Awesomely cute !!!
Potter coloured and also had a nice hair cut....looking cool XD

Thanks Potter & Shio for being my dates and saviour ! XD
It's rare or perhaps hard to find someone like these 2 where they are perfectly comfortable with what they are doing and where they are now.....Just as 2 best friends. Seriously....You guys really do inspire me in your bond of friendship. How I wish I can find someone like that.... =)

Cheers !!!

LAST MINUTE !!!!

2012-02-04T14:09:00.004+08:00

What Happens when You;ve been given a last minute plan......especially from your family. Well.....I'm just freaking pissed right now....so just blog the shit out of it !

Malacca Trip

All of the sudden been told to go to Malacca LAST MINUTE for house visiting. I'm freaking tired.....with workload all pouring in and even to guide all the work flow of the office and all, seriously......PLEASE DO NOT GIVE ME ANY MORE LAST MINUTE plans......It's freaking tiring to change all of my schedules again. I've already planned for paintball trainings and meetings, friends meet up, gatherings, my own time and all. BY JUST TELLING ME THAT I HAVE TO CANCEL EVERYTHING just for your own LAST MINUTE plan ......is just not fair !!! Please try to understand MY situation. I can't be 24/7 be ready waiting like a machine for you to make plans that I have to follow. Give me an early notice so that I can make some DECENT changes in order to minimize the damage / disappointment of others.
- Hated everytime I've been told by my parents about last minute changes ....everytime ......It never change !
Affects everything especially my plannings for the weekend. Everytime there is a last minute plan, it affects the people around me and even myself until it comes to a point where it will eventually disappoint someone.

FYI - even during my relationship, parents just keep giving me last minute change of plans.....It affected countless of times until I was accused and finally disappointing both parties.....my x-gf, my friends and also my parents.

What the hell do you want me to do ???? I can't pleased both sides you know......I'm not a robot !!! I'm not superman !!!

GOD Damn it !

Happy Hokkien Chinese New Year

2012-01-31T19:22:00.001+08:00

It's a brand new year for the hokkien langs !! Bing bang bong all over at night. Skies were filled with colours, and smoke came pouring all over the place.....The feeling of an actual Chinese New Year came XD

Fireworks everywhere!!!
It lasted for like 30 - 45 minutes non stop ! Holy Sh*T !
Awesome guys.....Thanks for the wonderful show all around !

We're praying to Father Ti Gong, thus I've always believed to dress up well as though you are going to meet him in person.

Last minute making gods money. We kinda left out on that one.

Now to the personal stuffs !!

The 8th day is the first day of new year for them.....and we pray and pray. The feeling of once was a kid comes back.....where we believe of gods and religious values are watching over us. It is once in a while.....you just can feel it.
I prayed really hard this year, believed really hard and even ask for for strength to be stronger, and better than what I was. I was freaking determined to change.....to be much better. There I was once who does not needed someone in my life, but it change when you meet someone you love. Haha, Those were the days I love the most.
Now I needed that man back....the one who was independent and strong.....the one who had a heart of a solid rock.

The atmosphere was pleasant......just hard work in believing and doing the things that what family does. Helping one another to go through with life in reality. Everyone has a problem.........be strong.....Don't face it alone.....let's face it together.

My past relationship haunts me sometimes.....Good and bad....either way, I'm glad it happened....even with the ending part. Valuable lessons learnt, tighter bond, freedom of doing things you love, and being stronger than you were. This is something I really am glad it took place. Sometimes people deserves better.....and I'm pretty lucky it happened before getting married. LOL !!!
I believe love is always about the 2 loving, understanding and always wants to be there for the person who he/she loves. No right, no wrong in love.....but don't do the things that'll hurts one another, simply to put it......DON'T BE AN IDIOT or a stupid fool in making stupid decisions !. Believing and sourcing for good will get you there.
This is my results.....my failed relationship is my result.......I've loved as best as I could.....My "loyalty" and "faithfulness" to my love was my very strength that kept me going for almost 2 years. In the end, It tumble down like a brick wall that was bashed by a demolition truck ! XD LOL
I guess I wasn't strong enough....to face and managing it all ALONE before it was broken to pieces.
"When you abandon this ship, just be sure you'll never regret on the other ship you've boarded"

Strange feeling I felt during the fireworks display at night .......I felt some .....well, you can say...."disturbance" or "eerie" feeling.....saw a white Mazda car passing through my house.....watching and looking. Just didn't like the feeling of those who were inside. Somehow you can feel some sort of dark energy around.....lol, me and my stupid feeling but some told me that I could feel the energy of the people who you meet or around you......I'm not sure whether it is true or not. Perhaps on new year day your energy level boost up!!!??? BWAHAHAHA. But this one.....feels weird. So I took a step and move forward closer to my front gate.....and the car slowly move away....with it's passenger keep looking at my house even after quite a distance he drove off.

I do not know....but I do feel something.....weird. Couldn't see the driver nor the passenger.....but it just doesn't feel good.......
Perhaps I shouldn't think too much......

Haha.....more to blog about now since I've got my awesome Iphone blogger apps !

Cheers ~~~

Guitar Tunes

2012-01-29T19:22:00.001+08:00

The 7th Day of CNY is here....i think so. lol
During the festive season.....things has been quiet .....it's been raining quite often, and the drops of water just gets you into that mood of playing some tunes.

Cling Cling Cling *** !!

Haha....When you play those tunes.....so does it comes back those lovely moments of playing the songs that is running in your head.

*** Cling cling cling **
My goal now is to master Richard Marx : Now and forever.....
wanna play this song to the next lucky girl XD

February is another busy month......Going out with a few girls on some dates. Paintball Competitions is closing in, and it will be the month of fighting hard to achieve something. ! XD
I'm scared at times of moments where things must be done strictly, like in situation where I have to make a quick action to change the course of what is about to take place.
It happens many times in paintballing.....good training for me though XD

CNY has been a quiet, relaxing and pleasant visit of familiar faces. I Started a trend where we always do a family photo shoot and also with friends who are in the CNY visiting gathering together every year to mark and remember of our good old times together. After 20 years.....We'll be laughing on all these photos. =)

Mun Yi's house. Our first stop together

A little drink or 2 with friends .....haha.....

Second stop at my house. We're planning to have BBQ more often now....averaging once every 3 months declaration !
It's been quite some time since we've gather together and have fun just like the old days

Our third stop.....Lydia's house

STEAMBOAT !!!! My favourite !
AH !!! A Big Thank you to Yuin Yue's family for the awesome dinner !

Our last stop until 2 am. Drinks, Money, and everything to end the night ! XD

I've started and hope that these trend of photos shall always be a good memory of many. It somehow touches your heart and makes you feel good of giving good memories to friends and even to thyself. My next goal is now to improve on my photography skills. I came a long way from knowing nothing about photography to now a DLSR user. =')

A lot's been going through in my head.....Good and bad things does come so often once in a while. I guess my old self is coming back. One who was independent, strong and a rock solid heart where he was unbreakable. I wanna be that person again. =)
Of course, with a new and much better improved self to learn and progress and all.....It's something i'm looking forward to this year 2012 ! XD

Another day ;)

2012-01-28T09:29:00.001+08:00

It's 9.30am.....an early appointment.....waiting for the customer to open their doors. Gosh.....got to wait for them to arrive. Faster ......later wanna go and do some house visiting with my college mates.

Looking forward to next week !!!! XD Got a few dates and all. Just though of going out again with few of the girls and see how is it like once more. Also it is great to meet up with most of my dearly friends again. :) I miss you all ! At least I can say I won't have much trouble now meeting up with you guys since I'm a freeman. XD

Lately a friend of mine got dengue fever and now she is hospitalized. Hope she recover fast! Told her bf that If they need anything... Was willing to Give a helping hand. The worst was she was one of my crushes during college time and by looking at her, some part of the memories came back.

I salute her bf for being there for her in her times of needs. I wasn't that skilled nor experienced in doing those deeds due to my temper. I guess it is another lesson for me. I really wanna improve so badly . It's a promise to myself!

Cheers !

Happy Chinese New Year 2012

2012-01-23T17:53:00.001+08:00

It's another great new year 2012, the year of the Water Dragon !
My Wishes to everyone I knew in this life time .....HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012. !!! XD

Now time for some expressing within my blog......

Started playing my guitar once more.....and also some songs that I told myself never to play due to the heart ache from my old old love stories when I was very young. One of the song was Richard Marx - Now and Forever. Gosh, When I played that song, I can remember the girl who I adore / like so much previously, but ended up not being together during my College time >.<

Oh well, I guess it does brings back good memories, and I laughed at it once in while. XD
Gotta practice now.....wanna play some real good songs and also for my future GF !!! XD

Today morning, when we were heading down to my dad's family house, mom was acting weird.....something like this;

Mom : How are you Ming Hui ?
Me : Good.....
Mom : Stupid boy .....
Me : What ????
Mom : Dumb ass.....
Me : What did I do ???
Mom : Then again I'm proud of you....
Me : Huh ???? I'm so lost here . I don't understand

Mom : Your a dumb boy....I can see you've not fully forgotten her yet ! Be wiser my son, be wise in letting go. Is it worth it to still love her after what she has done to you ???
Me : Err.......
Mom : But then again, I'm proud of you.....truly.
Me : ......What makes you say that ?
Mom : Because Even for what she has done to you and all, yet you still forgive her and until now....I can see you still love her after through such terrible ordeal.
Me : Maybe It's because of regrets in my heart ??
Mom : You think so ??? .......I think not. I'm proud of you son. At least I can feel at peace to know that your someone who will be loyal to your loves ones now and in the future.

Mom is really really unpredictable at times.......but then again....It's interesting. Those words really touched my heart. Thanks mom for the enlightenment. =')
Something new for me too......Seriously....Darn it.....she saw right through me ?? Do I still love my x-gf ?? That's ridiculous, although...... I have to seemingly admit to such feelings.......

This year My goal is "Must find The True love " .....She's out there.....waiting......I'm coming !!!! XD

The Boys ! Wishing you Gong Xi Fa Chai

The Girls ! Wishing you Gong Xi Fa Chai

A forgotten memory drops by

2012-01-22T13:11:00.001+08:00

There is a time where you say, " give me your hand" and I'll guide you along the way". Never knowing that one day, you'll be the person who falls.

There are times where you might accidentally fall over and sometimes with the given situation and pressure of life, it push you down on the ground really hard.

And there you lay.....not being able to move, not being able to do anything, the feeling of being powerless in your own path.....breaks a man's soul.

And there I was once upon a time, the feeling of being pushed aside, splat into the face of reality and no one to save me.

I remember it very well.....and it still haunts me once in a while. I'm being weak..... But I guess I'm human, and i'm sure everyone once in a while they fall too.....but to find someone there to bring them up back.

I have no one close to my heart to love and at times, to bring me up, but left with my beliefs and love to help others. I believe it is another lesson where our inner strength grows to be much better than we are previously.

It is about choices in life, if lambs were made to be preys, then why would hunter be afraid of being a prey as well? We always have a choice !!
Be hunted.....or be the hunter!

I will stand on the side of believing......where I shall never hurt another for my own selfish doings. If another has their own cruel deeds, then I can only pray for you, but to save you.....it is your choice. I shall always give an open arm.....even with this man who were once broken.

Stories & Stories

2012-01-21T22:51:00.001+08:00

Wow....Within these few days....much has happened and lots to talk about. Oh well, It's a free zone here anyway, so let's just let it all out.

1) The Passing Away
- Heard that the year of the dragon perhaps is too strong for a few, thus few and heard quite a number of stories of friends of their relatives and such passed away, My deep condolences to everyone who had to face such hard times. Let's hope for a better coming time in the year of the Dragon.
- A customer of mine who I personally trained and coached for their business system, CBL Berhad General Manager as well passed away during his project in Langkawi. News came where he collapsed in his room for 2 days without anyone knowing. Pretty Scary and upsetting to hear such an event took place. I hope you may Find peace, Mr.Shamsuldoa.

2) The 2nd Sponsorship
Looks like Another sponsorship may be coming for my paintball team. Pray hard and hope to get it. If it is approved, I won't be needing to buy anymore paintball gears that often anymore !!! XD Wee !!!!
Free brand new latest marker, free gears and cheaper paints to shoot and improve to the next level ! XD

The wonders of colourful markers ! XD ngek ngek ngek !!

3) The Water Dragon is approaching ....
- Chinese New Year is around the corner. AH !!! Finally get to meet with all my great relatives and friends alike. Holiday mood is hitting in. Wanna have a big break from all the work and the commitments. Angpao angpao mari mari.....Wanna meet up with old friends, meet new ones and also relax at home more often. Peaceful as such I hope this can last....Nothing to worry about most of the time....Just relax.....Zzzzz... XD

4) My New Self
- After from last year's great learning experience, I've changed quite a bit, but still long more way to go. In office, I've learnt to control my temper and my self proclaim responsibility of making a change, and I have to admit, It feels great. It takes a while to get used to, but in the end, all that comes out are just positive results and energy !
- My parents told me "It has been always your choice in life to make a change", and they told me that your now responsible for what it is to become. Thank you for the support and encouraging words, though mom always loves to push my buttons, then again, it does test to see how far I can take it. lol
- Spread the love around ......When things are stressful, Change the mood and the atmosphere in the office ....It has finally come to a point where everyone is happy and always feeling excited of getting to office. I guess my hard effort has paid off =')

Spread the joy with Mr.Low our Programmer

Spread the joy with Kak Nik, Admin

Our New Intern !! So nice to kacau her !
Really we can Sync together in work, fun to work with !

Camwhore time : Naza and Me !

Camwhore time : Ms Law and Me !

Camwhore time : Doris and Me ! Finally your back !

Camwhore time : John and Me !
Soon to join him in Marketing side

Camwhore time : Rajan and Me !

Camwhore time : Old time buddy Amirul and Me !

Camwhore time : Maria and Me !

Camwhore time : Mr.Mak aka. "Choi San" and Me ! XD

Camwhore time : Ms.Tiong and Me !

Traffic was Horrible everywhere. 2 hours of journey to a customer place
it only took less than 30 minutes to get the job done !

One of the many rare occasion I get to rid on a motorbike....Feel so nice ! The wind always giving you that ....Blissfulness.....lol. Perhaps I should try to get a Motorbike license?? Maybe.....Hmm...thinking to have one though XD

CAN;T WAIT TO SEE EVERYONE THIS COMING CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!! MISS YOU ALL !!
Cheers !!! Let's party party party !!!!

'Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness."
(An inspiring words from the adorable Yen Leong Whom I met during the video production) . Unique words. Your really interesting to learn from......

Yen Leong (2nd from left, and her group of bands)
Gosh, you really look like Soo-Young from Girls Generation !!! Oh my god !!!!

Sick....Fever

2012-01-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

Gosh, All of the sudden today I fall sick. Dunno why and how it happened......Woke up early in the morning and the next thing I knew.....I had sore throat, cough, fever, headache and bone aching all around.

I was like.....WHAT THE HELL MAN !!????
All of the sudden I got sick for nothing ??

Oh by the way, those who loves to know on how to "flirt" with girls with some added comedy and non-real like situations....here is one. Bwahaha....i was laughing out loud for the episodes and all. LOL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ooChw1NLizo&feature=relmfu

P.S : This video is the same production team who made the video called "Strangers again".

Since I was sick, so thought of just watching some comedy stuffs. Make me laugh and helps me heal so much better. XD
Also I just wanted to relax and all. Peaceful and with that much time today due to my fever to think and relax, deep thoughts does come in once in a while and you just turn on your iphone music and let it take you .........
Oh well. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be much better and also hope to faster get out there and meet more people. Sitting at home all day is boring ! XD

Saw the Moon last few days. Gosh, When I see the moon....I really get all blue and sentimental again >.<

15th January, Another journey

2012-01-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

This year I felt as though it is gonna be a VERY VERY good year. Things are good, and even more to come. There's so much to learn, and to improve. Year 2011, heard from many of my friends that many didn't do well in their relationships and also to some other factors in life. I guess year 2011 was the worst for many.....even me.

This year.....A lot of good things has been happening recently, and I'm grateful for it . Let's carry on working hard for this to always come. At least I'm happy that I still wanna be better and stronger !

1) Had another awesome night BBQ Party with friends once more. It has been quite a long long time since we had a BBQ party like this in my house. That is why I felt this year is gonna be a big Change for many ....for the good ! XD

Camwhore time with Derique

Camwhore time with Sook Teng. Great to see her once more !

Our Group Fun fact jump !

My Awesome Flying Kick

It's great to see JC happy for this party day. The things she shared with me and the burden she now carries....At least I could furfill my promise to help a friend =) Hope and pray that she will be alright and let's move on for the better !

2) Today kena shot out really good in Paintball.
Rare times where we play with the Semi-Pro paintballers (the best of Malaysian paintballers) and with that game, I learnt that there is a lot for me to improve. The cons is that during the game today.....I got shot out really really bad for few times. Lol, first time getting shot a lot. Worst part is that they shot me in the NECK !!!
That's one of our most sensitive + uncovered part during paintballing. God damn it ! It Hurts like hell now !!!

Reminds me of this incident where I got shot last time
in the competition during my early time.

Getting shot again

Bang bang bang ......Until I finally fall to the ground. lol

3) Few of my customers, some CEO's + friends told me that I look like a korean / taiwanese artist. Wow i felt so honoured ! XD
Gosh, now i'm starting to love my hairstyle even more. I guess year 2012 is gonna be a big change for me.

Thought Of Trying this hairstyle. Just dunno how to do it right like this >.<
Also looking forward to watch this drama !

4) CNY time is coming.....Since my homwtown is already at KL. Guess I'm gonna catch up with my anime, manga and perhaps some Korean drama. Heard there has been a lot of good stuffs out there. ! Gosh, What did I miss all these while ?? >.<

Okay, Let's do this !
3,2,1 - Action !

Reality Rush XD

2012-01-14T01:08:00.005+08:00

WORK WORK WORK !!! but also....PLAY PLAY PLAY !!!!
More travelling for me this coming months.....Interesting....I'm starting to love the awesomeness of going around and meeting new people alike + taking every opportunity to do silly things and making new friends.
After through the fun of Paintballing, now back to reality. Things has been rather.....challenging and tiring, but somehow I do enjoy myself through the times. This month has been a lot for me especially going out everyday as usual for what I have been doing almost 2 years. Just that this time, I feel much more free & relaxed, best part is more travelling around inter-states lately to meet up with new clients and customers to train and also to support.

Meet up with friends alike during my travelling among states, tasting the good old famous foods around, and if I have the time, take some photos and explore some places around. =) Feel so good....

Bored during my trip to Malacca, So took some self photo

Met Brian in Malacca For a nice Satay Celup Famous Capital XD

Makan time !!

Nurul, A new intern for us Seniors to guide.
Really nice and awesome to chat with. Hope you will learn more during your field trip.
Also.....Thanks for giving me the opportunity to tease you ! LOL LOL XD

Lately there is this one particular customer that I train and he shared some secrets with me, Guess I was too friendly ?? LOL . Anyway, the interesting part was he could actually predict and read people's current & future just by telling him the person's name. I didn;t believed him for a second.....so I jokingly gave my X-gf's name to him, and then.....Silent it was from me...... He got it 90 % accurately of her characteristics. I was like.....HOLY F*&K. Thinking In my head,......You met her before ?? How did you know about all this ???

The worst part was he kinda gave a little prediction of her future......just a quick glance through since we were just jokingly and laughing out talking to one another during the training, and it was one that I feared for her even when we were still together.. Looks like it was true, and I just hope that she will be alright....honestly. I would do anything to help a friend, but please don't take it for granted, Cause I'll kill you for it =)

Then, I ask about another dear friend of mine and also myself. Well, I know one thing, I have to work hard to learn and meet new people, and with that he said, your already on your way to the top. =')
I told myself, that I wanna be stronger, be better and even to an extend where lately in office, I've learn to calm myself down from showing my temper. It kills a lot of opportunity and relationship previously ....I cannot let that happen anymore. I will change for the better ! It's a mistake that I will have to learn and move on fast !

Good things does come when after I've decided to change as well. I guess here is another lesson in life ! XD

Me & Sis Pose 1

Me & Sis Pose 2

My good friends became my sisters and brothers, close friends. My friends are now closer to me, my real little sister and I are now like buddies ! Oh my god ! What has the world turn us into >.< ???!!! XD

Me and my new sis ! Pose 3

Friends night time !

Met another new friend lately, Michelle, Quite a nice girl. During the night of our happy hour we talk & talk & talk about life and the silly things we've done and learnt. It rained, so we had to go into my car....and we carry on chatting until 4 am in the morning. Great sharing Michelle ! =)

Pose pose !!

I'm number 3, Michelle number 2, and Rachel number 1

Well, good things comes, and bad things go for a reason.....And I've no regrets...but only to love with what I have =)
My promise to protect the friends dire to me, I'm always here for you all and will do what I can, because I know how it hurts when life just isn't fair. Need any help, my phone is always ready.....lol, sometimes I'm working.....so please try to understand though XD

The Aftermath

2012-01-10T18:30:00.003+08:00

Our Dedication / Our Determination !

Love this photo. Leading the team to the front line !

After through the intense battle for victory over the Malaysia Paintball Official Circuit 1st League 2012, The Outcome has finally been revealed.

5th Placing for our team !

Division 3
1st - Joker Unit
2nd - Sabil
3rd - East Coast Legion
4th - Yin Yang
5th - Top Passion

We were actually quite close in winning among the top 4 placing, but eventually lost to team East Coast Legion in a tough / tight closure. The Game rules is that we need to win 2 games at least to advance to the next level. So here are the results for Team Passion Vs Team East Coast Legion for the among top 4 placing.

Round 1 - We win

Round 2 - We lost

Round 3 - Draw

Round 4 - We Lost ---> I guess luck wasn't on our side for this game.

Anyway, 5th Placing we still do get a medal for it, I guess we're not going back home empty handed after all !! XD

Bad news is that I've spent averaging RM 800 for this game itself since it is a new format where we have to win 2 games instead of only 1 time. More games needed to win, more pellets you'll be shooting.

After the long and extremely intensified battle for victory....I guess I do feel ....good ! I mean I don't feel much sore or muscle aching or such. I guess my body has started getting used to such intense sports. FINALLY !!! Yeah XD

February is gonna be another long and intensive battle. I've got 2 more competition to play which are the following:

Our Prize Ceremony

1) 11 & 12 Feb for Tactical Paintball Competition 2012

2) 18th - 19th february for Malaysian National Paintball League 2012

3) Cosplay Photoshoot In February.

I'm finally busy with my stuffs once more. Can't wait for the fun and flavours to come in. Best part is making new friends and meeting new girls alike. XD lol.

Excited for our first Battle among the elites !

Suddenly James / Michelle snap my photo ! lol

Pit Crew aka Girlfriends and alike to help out ! XD
Pretty girls

The BINGO members - our unity once more
Take 1

The BINGO members - our unity once more
Take 2

The BINGO members - our unity once more
Take 3

Goodbye MPOC 1st League 2012 - We'll get the trophy for the next league !

Till Then
CHEERS Ahead Of Days !!

The excitement Awaits !

2012-01-06T14:33:00.001+08:00

Malaysian Paintball Official Circuit 2012 - First game in Bukit Jalil Park

Nervous for tomorrow !!!!.... Scared and perhaps even insomnia has taken place quite a bit lately. It's my first time playing into a competition that allows the players to shoot full auto mode. That means 13 balls PER SECOND IS gonna come at you !!!!

Freaking out on what to expect. Best part is the team name. One weird one I would say.....

" TEAM TOP PASSION "

I thought it was TOP FASHION when the first time they annouced our team name......I laugh out loud on that one. Then again, it is weird, different and unique. So I guess we gotta be top in our paintball passion tomorrow for the game !! XD

This is the last week where the remaining 5% shall deprived from its roots and be left planted with new seeds of beginning. My declaration to be better and to move forward. This competition will end the remaining memories of her. I know myself very well that after this, it will all be forgotten and I shall cherish and love the memories always, and give new one for the next person with my improved self.

Peaceful the days had been lately, Got to be better and stronger !

To be honest, I do feel peaceful now a days.....things are slowly coming back, my friends, my cosplay, my guitar practice, my production thrills, my paintball journey, badminton sessions....etc and all seems .....according to plan. Thank You to the lessons in life that has made me stronger. Thank You Thank You ! =') Make Friends, Not enemies =)

Reminds me of a peaceful evening blue bliss

Now let's go out there and get that TROPHY !!!

Wish me luck ! XD

Mission Complete

2012-01-02T23:55:00.001+08:00

Wee !!!!

Finally after 4 days of restless night, always sleeping around 3 am and getting up around 7 am. Finally.....the journey ends. Good to re-live the past of late nights and good old times with familiar faces and friends in a teamwork basis. Lots of those good old times coming back and the best part is that the passion to be involved in Film Production once again is coming back ! XD

I think I've found Sook Teng's Twin brother !!! lol

Now I hope I can write a new script, and also help me to horn my skills in directing a short film. Wee ~!!!! Thinking of it already gets me all hyped !

Few days sleeping 3 am ++ due to overwork. lol

When Things are down.....It's your choice to make a change.
So I tried to make the entire shoot with happy moments =)

Next, I've officially recovered 95 % ++ from my previous relationship. I hear many took them 6 months - 1 year of forgetting and moving on.

For me, It only took 1 month to do so.......expecting to be 100% by end of this weekend.

I guess I was fed up of everything that took place, my mistakes, the faults, the taunts, the negativity and the thing that could bring me down. I was tired, and only wanted to get rid of it, thus I went deep into my heart, weeks of soul searching and breaking down without any care from the other side......looking for answer of what went wrong,......and finally found my way out with what I was looking for. It took everything in me to triumph from this ordeal in such a short time.

**Pats Pats** You've made it Ming Hui ! =)
Congratz again ! XD

Now gotta work hard ! XD More good things to come !

Celebrating Kumiko's Birthday with a nice Starker Beer

Starker Beer in Overtime ! Awesome taste !

Kumiko's Brithday celebration was sweetn nice and simple. Great to see her Bf and some familiar faces once more. Awesome Drinking session and good pals around =)

Lastly.....A quite interesting girl I've met recently. Same style, same interest and lots to talk about.... Especially Korean stuffs with our same Idol form SNSD---> JESSICA !!!!! Crazy enough to know she is somehow just like me.....sort of. Cool to met and work with her ! Cheers !

Weird photos together......

Take 1

Take 2

Take 3

Take 4

Take 5

Friend that you could share with and count on.
Friends always.

Swithc style for a change.....lol
Weird XD

I laugh out loud when I saw this !

Looking forward to have the film winning the awards ! Somehow....This film It connects me from my past experiences and I could felt the memories coming back when doing this film storyline. Cool !
Sleepy......Wanna sleep now. Goodnight world ! See everything in a whole new light !

Goodbye 2011

2011-12-29T08:13:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2011 !

Through hard ship, pain and blood shed in proving my self in the paintball world, my loyalty to my love before and even after we broke up, the stress level that took a lot in me from my workload. I guess all these has put up a good lesson for me in life. Expression on the truth in 2011 it will all be here ;......

1) Paintball
- Proven myself to be someone strong, capable and supportive in the team. I've given my very best in proving myself. Although the sponsorship is currently on hold, however, chances came up again where another team offered me another type of sponsorship in the Tactical paintball (know as Recball tournament). I was excited to know that my hard effort has finally paid off. I guess it was a test after all from god to see how I would pull through.
- I can't be young forever, thus better to enjoy, fight on with full spirit in sports before I lose my vitality someday.
- Another reason was because of xy, I wanted to be stronger "physically" so that when she hug me, she could feel even more protected around me. I do not want to be weak when protecting her.

Meeting XY & her parents in JB for the first time, and there
a rainbow came during my journey

2) Love (The Best Damn Thing)
- Some part of me was proud of myself that at least I've proven to be loyal to my gf no matter what. Even there are some people who approached me during our relationship, I push them aside, and told them that I was already in love, and I've kept my promise until now. Loyalty is something I can give to my love because I've seen what many has done, and I've promised myself NEVER to become something that I feared most.

- The pain in my heart still lingers, I can say at least I'm 70 % recovered. Soon to be even better. At times, I've felt so lonely until I just needed someone to replace her in my heart, to ease the pain, yet I told myself, It wouldn't be fair to the other person, thus here I am, trying my best to stay strong or an angel to save me.

The Message that came right in front of me
after knowing her dark side when I was in York.
Exactly at that moment when I was thinking to accept her or not. Concidence ??

- The break up , somehow some part of me feels grateful for what has happened. It somehow taught me a lesson in life, quite a number actually......and it has also awaken me that I never thought I've loved a women that much before in my life. An experience that fill me up with joy. I thank god or whoever was watching over me for this to happened, You have shown me something new, and a great opportunity to improve myself even more. Perhaps this is only temporary to teach me a lesson, and maybe perhaps......just perhaps.....one day.

Our Yet another vacation trip in Kuantan =)
Gosh....I think she was heavy. LOL

- She'll always be my baby for as long as I have her in my heart. Although she may be giving me the cold vengeance onto me for what I've done and said to her, that deep down inside, I know who she is, and somehow I can feel what she feels too. My sincere apology as love turns to anger towards her and so did she towards me. We've shared a strong bond together and now she wanna be free, so I'll let her fly. If it is destiny for us, when the time comes, I shall always give her my love. I've never open my heart this much for a person before, never in my life.

- Many told me that she and I were a matched, our temper, our smile, our joy and the way we express ourself were equally same. I'm sorry If many were upset or felt that we had something but ended up breaking apart. I really wish it last forever, but for now all I can say is "Let It Be" at the moment. Lots of things I've done for her secretly that I've kept to myself without her knowing......but then If I expressed them here, It might sound lame to many. LOL. Better not. Perhaps that is another lesson where I should be sharing more with her when we were together. Goodbye my love until we meet again.

Presentation in Sarawak. Had to set up 2 counter machine,
4 network printer for kitchen & bar, 1 server and 2 full day Training !!

3) Work
- Great, Looks like 2012 is going to be something new for me. I'm going to be a System Consultant, Marketing side. Income and commission basis will be much higher. Also, less work load since during my time in Support for almost 2 years, I had to do all sorts of things, such as physical work, presentations, installations, preparations, delivery, analysis of problems one by one and finally support to the customer in a long run.
- Took much of my time and energy until when I got home, I just could not move nor feel like doing anything. My muscle sores, my brain was tired after all those thinking of solving people's problem, and hoping to get home to get a good night rest.
- Just found out that my Overtime benefits has gone too high until it is 12 days of free leave before April 2012!!! After through all those paintball events (took a lot of my leave), some leave for XY dates, vacation trips and all.....Yet I still got 12 days of leave !!!! Holy cow.....I guess I really did overwork too much.

4) Friends
- My love and gratitude to all my friends and love ones. You have helped me through the tough times and for that, I'm eternally grateful and thank god for showing and giving me the chance to see them. You have my support when you need me ! =)
- Also, a message to Arisa who is a dear friend of mine, I know you've changed, but I hope you shall stay strong, and please do not become the person that you hated the most. You were never this cold, you were a warmth to many, a friend to us, and a kind person in heart to me. I pray for you......even though you have done "personal attacks" via broadcast on me. If you ever needed help, my phone is always ready.

5) 2012 Target
- Promoted to a professional division paintballer to compete in the international Arena
- Bring my father's company up to the top !
- Be stronger, better and improved person
- Find love once more, even if it is the same person. (Love can do all sorts of things)
- Get a new car ! (erm.....not so important though)

2012 !!!! Here I come....I hope this will bring good ending to my past, and begin a new me in the future ! World Peace !!

XD

Adventuring into the forest

2011-12-28T09:11:00.000+08:00

Memories, experiences and moments in our minds is like a deep forest ....and it takes time for a person to find something that he is looking for.

Through months, I've tried to understand and look deep into my heart after I have calm myself down through the anger within me of losing her . It took a long time before I've finally came to realise what was actually going on.

My friends told me,
"Ming......You better don't think too much"
"If you wonder into a forest, be sure you can find your way out"
"Best Is to leave it as it is....."

Once you start going into that deep forest, you may get lost, and perhaps find it even harder to return back. Yet, I knew the risk.....And I needed to know the answer of what went wrong with both of us.....so I begin searching for that very particular reason, a "flower" you can say, looking for an answer. Through weeks of searching........I;ve managed to found bits of pieces of what is left......pedals of flowers that was torn or destroyed......I kept my pace and at times....I slow down to ensure that I do not go too deep into the forest, but at times and quite often, I got lost ......

Again & again ....I've tried to find and venture even deeper to find the answer.....and till yesterday...................

I've found it. A beautiful peace of flower, still fresh and grown well, looking into it as though it was waiting to be found. Best part is there was not only one.....but few of them....waiting for me deep inside the forest.......The answer that I was looking for through the intense weeks of searching within my heart and facing reality through it......Finally.....I've found the very thing that was right in front of me all these past 2 years of my relationship.

I guess human beings are always trying to find ways to improve themselves in many ways and that's the beauty of our species. We are always improving again and again......We never stop.....until when we decided to give up.

"Rise & Rise again until lambs become lions"

I couldn't sleep again yesterday night thinking and searching through my heart, hoping to find an answer......and I finally did !

Bad Times again....

2011-12-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

Gosh, just got back from a paintball training with my team mates. Well, good news is that I've managed to qualify for Team Matrix Entourage (Division 1 Team) where others were still pending and all.

Now, here's the really kick ass news for me......Well....list it down and just express it all out...

1) Lost my gf since she abandon me for another guy.
- I guess the title says it all.
- Also, "We didn;t managed it well together". As her words, Yes i agree, And I felt that I would do anythnig to have her back. This heart sometimes just can't take the loneliness at times. I know there are many out there, but somehow this one I realise it was Magical. something special for both of us.....How I wish she could just feel what I feel....But I guess her pride is even more important than love. I remembered her saying....."I will love you no matter who you are.....I'll always support you no matter what you do". All these words, I could remember them so well.....Yet, how did it end up becoming a terrible nightmare ???
Was it just words ??? or was it just lies ??

2) Paintball Sponsorship most likely will not be happening !!!!
- Just got the news, since our captains are leaving the team for a better offer.....I guess Now the team that I've fought so hard for months just to finally qualify to be considered as a Division 1 SPONSORED player is now considered as a dream.

At Least We're still together after through the tough times of paintball

Reminds me of love.....lol

Finally get to wear back my old Suit.

I guess what I'm trying to say here is that I've lost the sponsorship due to other teams migration and giving better offer to the experienced players to leave our team. Now all that is left is few, and the sponsors wouldn't want to give it to a team that is now in a messy situation now would they ...??

I guess all those hard work, effort, and even sacrifices has finally come to an end. Nothing to gain in results. Just like my gf abandon me for another or both of us not doing anything together to make it better >.< What's next ..... ??????

Gosh.....How cruel reality can be........But at least I know one thing still....That I'm still alive.....and I can still make a change. Choices are now in my hands, chances will come, and I know somehow, this is a test for me to be stronger than what I was before. Soon.......It's just the matter of time....

Our Crazy Style : Take 1

Our Crazy Style : Take 2

Our Crazy Style : Take 3

Our Journey together......

I guess It was great taknig care of her at times =')

Cameron Highland, Finally our own time.....together

I Guess I'm crying again.......Somehow I'm sure that no matter what she did, My heart still misses her.....even for what has happened .....I know that If I remembered them in my mind...It will hurt me again and again....thus Sometimes I just write them in my blog to express it all out, and hope that they will be forgotten....or be given a chance once more. =')

* Thank You * Merry Christmas !!

2011-12-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

Christmas eve is here.....And soon is Christmas Day !! =')

My Simple / Quick artwork for my Dad's company.

Lonely Christmas this year for me without the love of my life......Well, Except there are family members, friends, and even love ones who love me for who I am has even express to me. I'm Grateful and thankful for you and everyone who has raise me up through this terrible time of ordeal. It's been raining for quite some time now....Rain sure does fill up your mind of thinking the times before and perhaps....even remembered the things of how happy life was before.

Me & Potter - Our moments for a late night movie.

I would Personally like to thank Potter for being there for me when I was down.....She asked me out for movies, invited me for sleepovers at her place with Shio, and sometimes even message me on how I was. =') Best part is you were also kind enough to give me a present on our movie night >.<
Thank You Thank You.

Second, I would like to thank Hannah Teamint.....You've been a great friend to me, I've never imagine that you would go through all the trouble in Singapore just to send me your personal DIY Christmas Card + Your SHINee certificate card. Your just super amazing !! almost 18 years of friendship and your still there for me. Thank You =')
[Even my X-gf never did such a thing for me =P]

Derique & Me, Thanks for the sharing and stories of UK.
Really Good memories and funny stories to talk about....

I was pretty surprised when the terrible truth and moment came where it brought me down hard, as I've opened my heart to another, but only to find it was stolen and given away to someone else....Burns a hole so deep in a man's heart. Without even knowing, many of my friends came and comfort me.....some even those who were long lost best friends like Liang Shin. Never thought that one day you would call me out for a badminton game all of the sudden and even give me a present to cheer me up !
Somehow, This makes me feel as though God / someone who is watching over me is working his / her miracle ways. I'm eternally thankful and grateful for what I've been blessed and given.

Can't believe that when trouble comes, True friends appears and help me out of nowhere. =')

Lastly I would like to thank everyone who has been there for me and to even guide me on going through the tough times.

These were the times when we were REALLY REALLY HAPPY =)

The Funny moments Where we got sprayed during our photo !

Some even ask, If we were to be given a second chance after what has happen, would you still forgive her and be back together ??
My heart told me.....YES....but my pride was rather against it. Unless we decided to be better than who we were before. =)

I guess that is one of my weakness, Or could it be true love ?? I dunno . If it is destiny / fate, Then It shall happen and I guess Things will go accordingly.

Till then.....MERRY CHRISTMAS Everyone. This year I'll be alone for this Christmas, A Hollow Heart needs its time to be refilled. Love you all !!

My Journey .....

2011-12-21T13:05:00.001+08:00

Oh my god !!!!! I heard that I qualify to play for Division 1 !!! XD Oh my god, Oh my god, Oh my god. Looks like it is going to be a whole year of game. How I wish last time she was here and of course, supporting me when I play or fight. I guess I was always alone when it comes to support as well. Both of us weren't supporting each other much in times of needs. I've definitely learned my lesson. Well done Ming Hui.

Shot almost all players out single handed
in most of the games =)

I was always thinking of someone during the game....I was hoping she could see me pass the test of souring high.

Thoughts in my head during game of how I wish that I could take it all back.
These somehow means nothing without her......

The Regret of losing her still lingers....the words i said, the tears she shed, the action She / I did hurt each other rather than supporting one another. I knew who and how she was....The determination she shed on me, yet I have and shall always believe in the good....I WILL PROTECT HER.
.....I thought i could change her...How i wish i could be there for her. Our past was great, but many were focus on the negative side rather than the good moments we had. My feelings was never bad intentions, yet to her believes......it was. I've prayed to god many times.....how i hope she can be happy....And i hope one day, god to give me the strength to raise her up once more. To believe in her.....and to bring her the happiness that I could share with her once more. My promise to myself.....should she or another women come into my life...I shall and always protect you .....even if it takes everything of me.

I've learned my lessons.....though the hard way....and I've always try to stay positive....the "curse / gift" seems to have affected us both. My words, my actions, my bad past.....were all from my anger, hate and weakness. I shall be stronger.......for you !~!!
I know myself......that when I love someone....It remains loyal and always for the person.....even through tough times. =')

Rise

2011-12-20T22:14:00.001+08:00

Do I deserve this...... No
Do I deserve Better.....Yes
Do I Deserve the Best.....YES

Now Let's Go out there and shine.... I should start loving myself more =)

Love the moment to be back in Cosplay last time

I love Zero Kiryuu....He's such a cold hearted, yet friendly person

The Cold, cool hot headed Byakuya.
Just like me last time =)

The Good boy looks....Cool

The Bad Boy style....Love this a lot !

Finally ......The immature one. XD
Yet I know there are not many in this world who is like me....
Maturity in certain things, but never to all =)
Pick your battles wisely =)

A little too not over you

2011-12-20T14:43:00.001+08:00

I miss her.......I miss her warm hug......I miss her joyous smile...... I miss her Gorgeous hair and laughter.......I miss her car vroom vroom sound outside my house.......I miss her kind heart when she was who she was :'( My phone battery is running low, since I believe she won't be looking at my blog or even replying ... Guess I can e press everything what I feel here. Gosh....... I feel like crying again....... Every single day without her somehow makes me feel as though it has been for weeks without her >.<. God please give me the strength and chance once again......

Sleepless nights

2011-12-20T07:45:00.001+08:00

Sleepless nights again......when i think about her, I just can't sleep. Luckily I could eat well once more, but with the work pressure and more OT time coming in. I hope I can rest well. I really miss her a lot......her being beside me always made me feel as though there is someone who will always be there for me.For what ever that has happened, I guess I still do miss her so much.....

Feelings.....

2011-12-20T01:25:00.000+08:00

My blog seems not to have many readers or perhaps, non....thus I guess it is my very own free space to express what I truly feel.......

Well.... Feelings of her once again triumph over me. The angel I gave to her should i could not be there for her, the shooting stars from Austria, in which I believe was a sign from god. Things that we do in UK and the experiences of what we've been through.... all to be forgotten and to be Faded away just like that????!!!!

I knew I felt something....magical, and perhaps abundance of love. I mean, I've never felt so much "love" before. The sleepless nights, the "no appetite of eating" and perhaps even the joy of thinking her to be happy somehow just....warms my heart again. Before i knew her, I've never open my heart to anyone as to avoid the cruel reality out there that many faced and to what I feared. Listing down all those happy moments together were endless and much of them were deep of feelings and a bond of heart.

I know many have told me to let go, even herself (my heart couldn't take it to hear from her voice)..... but somehow, I can feel as though I've fallen hard for her, until the very ground where I stand crumbles. The strong thick walls that i've build up for years around my heart has finally been brought down by her, the one and only love that I've felt so strong when we both were together. If she wasn't the one I loved, why would this feeling hurt me so much? Why wouldn't the feeling just go away and leave me alone >.<
Even when she told me there was no point of turning back.....One I could say in my head was that, there is always hope. If you truly believe with what your heart feels that things will be good once more, then it shall. It has and always had been the choices of everyone to make a difference that could change their life. Many even told me that I deserved better, but even through all those words of wisdoms and the unforgiven action that has been done, Somehow....my heart just keep forgiving her....and not wanting anything but only happiness for her....even with another man......

The fire in my heart dies slowly, but if god has a plan for us.... I pray you can please show me a sign or the way to bring out the chance in her and me to once again adventure a journey together..... Because i've learned my lesson and wanting to improve even more, and the love that I have given her whole heartily has still been hoping. I wish only to bring her happiness..... Never did I though nor intended of hurting her. Sometimes when I became a cold hearted person, was just because I hope I could change her, or guide her to be better. However, my arrogance and contempt of jealousy and anger kills the very person of who I was.

One that we both found something in common or weird in a sense, is that our adventures always seems to hit into each other on the road. What she goes through, sooner or later I will have to go through that as well as though it would seem that we both will have to face the challenges ahead.....together.

An angel was given to her, my promise to be with her all the time when I could not.....
A sign from god of 3 shooting stars when we were both alone..... sitting under the twilight of mountains.....
An exchange of hearts of trust and compromise we promised together when we were madly in love.....
Our SPECIAL fate of relation where should one of us experience something, the other shall endure or face the same thing.
And...... An exchange of warmth when we hug each other .....even now I still can remember it so well.....She was so warm in hand....where my heart meet hers.

Sometimes I wonder why is it our human nature we would want to make things complicated??? I've learned mine..... And only hoping god and the very sweet, fun, adorable and beautiful girl that took my heart away when I met her for the first time .....would forgive me and take a chance once more to love life with full of love, experiences and adventure. I would do anything just to have that adventure once more =)

Busy-ing around......

2011-12-18T17:14:00.000+08:00

I'll have to start cleaning up my room once more.....Lots of things needed to be clear off.....really really messy !!! >.< Can't take it anymore !!!

Got to keep myself busy .....been listening a lot lately to Avril lavinge song - Wish you were here, My Happy Ending, and When your gone. I guess the fire still does linger around in my heart. I guess she does mean a lot to me all these while. If she doesn't, I won't feel this bad. It'll take a moment before all these will change, in the meantime, enjoy the moment and the feeling =) I don;t usually get to experienced this often.

Speaking of which.....I think I'm gonna get the contract to play for Team Matrix Entourage Division 1 - Looks like I've managed to pull it off even with a weak muscle, spirit and my self-confident due to my lost of xy. I'm happy that I've managed to confidently say that I'm gonna be sponsored !!! XD Well....MAYBE....lol.Once I've taken this offer, I will be tied down to play for an never ending 1 year of games. It will take lots of my time, energy and commitment. I guess it is a once in a lifetime opportunity and it is also one of the ways to make me forget about her.

I hope she will be happy, just can't bear to see her cry or feeling sad.......I just can't bear the pain to see that happens, I hope she is happy.....but i'm just sad that it wouldn't be me who will be there for her. If I were to be given another chance, I guess I would do anything to take it all back, even travel back to time and make a change to it all. I guess my principle still stands, uphold not to do anything stupid after her words were spoken to me directly. Like I have said, those who are close to me, they will know what my principle stands, and that is what makes me different than any other people around. =)

Till then, Good Days ahead !
=)

Another adventure Awaits ! XD

2011-12-18T02:08:00.000+08:00

Good Day !

First and foremost...many things has happened during this desperate times closing of the year 2011....Well, perhaps too many....

1) Beloved XY
I've finally got what I wanted, the answer from my beloved xy, I guess Now I can finally let go and move on. There is no point for me to linger anymore on this. Things has been done and what had been written in the book, it has to be there. The answer awaken me, and I felt as though I was not as angry nor depressed, but rather a sense of relief & realization. Good thing is , I've learned something good and new from this answer.....I guess I just needed a clear message from her before I could move on. Oh well, there are lots of things to learn and improved. Those who knows me well enough, I have a strong principle that I believed in and with that, I will not tarnish nor do anything to break that very principle. it awoke me from being angry / miserable to a sense of relief and positivity. It is also the thing that stops me from pursuing her any longer.

I wished her with my sincere goodwill message through facebook. I'm also sorry if we had a lot of fights and arguements. I've never intended to hurt you in anyway. =)

Things will move on for the better, and I hope I could see her happy once more (the xy I knew), but I fear that..........oh well, it is a secret ..........and a secret it shall remain until when the time is right. If it is fate / destiny that one day we would meet again and it all happen once more, So be it =), but for now, life goes on =) and I hope I can find the person who deserves the love I can give, and to grow together.

Cheers to Her and her only !

2) PAINTBALL
Tomorrow is my tryout or shall we say......an entrance exam to judge on my skills of paintballing whether it would fit the purpose of a new team. Team Matrix Entourage, A division 1 team is now currently looking for players to fit in and Should anyone got the deal, they would be sponsored for everything in a year time !!!! I mean, I'm a Division 4 player, one would say one of the lowest and inexperienced player in the tournament arena, but one day, all of the sudden, I was given an opportunity to play for the Division 1 (one of the top division to be a professional paintballer) and now they are giving me the opportunity to tryout with them for the team. I was deeply honoured, never thought that one day, I might get sponsored to play !!!
Let's hope that I shall triumph and win the contract ! Wish me luck !!! XD

Me Playing for Division 1 Team Matrix Entourage

Yep....I look so .....COOL!!! XD

3) IPhone 4S
I GOT IT I GOT IT !!! The new Iphone4S !!!! I remembered I promised Sandra I shall get a new smartphone end of this year so that we could chit chat on the phone for free and endless topics to discuss. Oh well, I've furfilled that promise to her and to myself.....but i guess now it is only to myself alone. A great treat for the things that took place in 2011. I guess sometimes good guys needs a break once in a while. Thanks God for giving me the opportunity ....Can;t wait to play the phone ! XD

She's Beautiful !! XD

Gosh, This year much has happened, an eye opening experiences all around, A great journey and opportunity rises, moments and dreams that some are realized and some unfortunately ....crushed. I guess all of these things happened for a reason....And i shall always try my best to do what I can to make it through.

Lastly, Love you Jessica...... Stay strong in your tour always !

Confessions of hearts through forgotten memories

2011-12-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

Was going through my x-girlfriend's blog recently, saw and read through all the memories in 2010 and 2009, wanna see what were the great experiences we have been through, cherishing all the good, lovely and meaningful memories. Responded to the post that gives a meaning to my life.

In my mind, the xy I knew was gone, and I responded to her past, her past of who she was, and the person that I fall in love.

Everytime i see my blog, my post, her blog and her post of us together being happy.....brings joy to my heart. When the moment of sorrow came and haunt me for the past weeks, months, sometimes happen every few days, I can feel the pain.....feels as though there was a hole / deep wound in my heart left untreated. The very action she has done to become a person who she wasn't hurt me deeply. I finally knew the women I love was no longer there......yet I still and WILL believe the xy I knew and love, is still inside there....somewhere.....

I miss xy......your memories just brings me joy and warmth to my heart. =')

Our chase in UK, One I have not regretted until now

Ahh....So cute during 2009

Never thought that these 4 would finally become couples during that time in UK.

Her photo of me coming to JB just to deliver Roses. I missed her a lot during that time, and I could not take it to see her cry over me. =')

The most meaningful post from my past beloved xy......well, it gave me a warmth once again when I read it.....Oh gosh, now missing xy more..... XD

'I'm coming to JB!!'

~I hope tomorrow morning when i open my eye, i can get to see you. I miss your hug.~

My hope is come true, I'm not dreaming...

Yes, he is holding my hand, his hug bolster up and warm my heart.

Today I open my eye, I get to see him...

I thought my hope for tomorrow cannot come true,

but he make it happened!

He is such a amazing guy~

I'm touched

I'm happy, very happy, very very happy!

His action sounds a bit crazy, but there's something very big impressive for me.

I will never forget what he had done for me...

Words for him:

You're amazing. You always make thing happen!!

I appreciated what you have done for me.

You're the colour of my life,

You put smile on my face, your appearance always keep into my sight.

Once again,

hugging you, I will never feel lonely and fear.

Another that really remembered / remind me what was like and why I've loved her a lot during that time.....well, her post says it all.

Declaration of Love

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn -
Is to love and be loved in return."

His unforgettable 22nd birthday and also my unforgettable date.
Beautiful city light scenery with cooling weather bring to my mind,
and also not forgotten his hug, warm and tight.
He warm up my heart...
The moment i'll never forget.
His smile and laughter is my source of strength,
When i was down and faintness, he cheer me up
Saying - " Shiang yi, say YOU ARE HAPPY, cheer up!!'
"louder!! not enough, cheer!! yea~ That's right..."

"Say YaPuu!"

He... raise me up.

Distance love is tough,

Sometimes i am weak, i really need someone be there for me.

I couldn't reach him, couldn't touch his face,

but i know he is always the one who want to share with me.

sharing help us to build up the bridge that allow us to cross every obstacle,

reduce the distance between.

Message from Ly and Lindsay,

- 'Anything is possible'. I agree with you about Nic being a very passionate and sincere person and will treat you like a Princess. However, you will appreciate his immaturity when you get to our age - He is fun and full of life and being with him won't be boring. -

i feel pleasure to received their blessing from UK.

Especially Ly was really supportive and keep telling me,

'Sandra, anything is possible..' =)

Time fly very fast. 27th of this month is our one month anniversary.

Message to Him:
I really appreciated your care and love. Thanks for coming all the way from KL to JB.
Im touched.
No matter who you are, i will still like u.
Whenever you are, you are always on my mind.
As i said, i will melt the hard rock heart, bit by bit,day by day, time by time ...
Holding your hand, i will never feel fear,
Hugging you, i will never feel cold and lonely.

I gave you "compromise"
You gave me "trust"

My 60% still with you, or even more...

I'm doing better now......much better. I'm now in control of my feelings and emotions, quite a success for me. next phase will suppressed it even further.....but i guess i'll leave some of it still.......hoping that it will return one day and everything will be back to where we were during 2009- 2010 times. I still believe / hope that she will return back to me, my dear beloved xy. I can see there are lots of girls out there, lots of people who I can choose to be with......But somehow, My heart still feels as though it does not want to leave her.....It wants to be with her again.

Even there are times where I know she will be going out with another guy, but my heart still was willing to take the risk and wait, hope to be with her again someday. I guess my love is so strong that If I ever see her with another, I still would wait for her....silently.....and If Sorrow takes me again.....The flames would have to be blown out to keep my soul from losing itself.I can't fight this feeling at the moment....somehow I can control them......but will I regret once I've extinguish the flames ?? ?

Sincerely,
MING

Conversations Of Thoughts

2011-12-15T03:11:00.000+08:00

Thanks Liang Shin for the Sharing. I never thought you still could remember what I have shared and done for her. I guess You can remember better than me now......The Fire is dying. I can feel it, This time when I stand tall .....I'm afraid of myself.....I might become the cold hearted man that I was back from the old times again.

Stand Tall MING HUI !!! Come back to yourself......Raise up and furfill the promise that you've made to yourself. Now this is where it will test my ability to control my emotions and actions. I guess god is planning something for me and for everyone. Perhaps another is already waiting for me all these while... =)

12/15/2011 2:31:01 AM Jin Sang 吳 Wednesday Raven you know
12/15/20112:31:21 AMJin Sang 吳Wednesday Ravenif you are willing to drive all the way to johor just to send her flowers or so
12/15/20112:31:24 AMJin Sang 吳Wednesday Ravenor something like that
12/15/20112:31:31 AMJin Sang 吳Wednesday Ravenyour a real great bf
12/15/20112:31:44 AMJin Sang 吳Wednesday Raveni think she missed a real good guy if thats the case
12/15/20112:31:53 AMJin Sang 吳Wednesday Ravenworking tomorrow?
12/15/20112:31:57 AMWednesday RavenJin Sang 吳yeah working?
12/15/20112:32:00 AMWednesday RavenJin Sang 吳miss a real good guy ?
12/15/20112:32:05 AMJin Sang 吳Wednesday Ravenmissed
12/15/20112:33:02 AMWednesday RavenJin Sang 吳yeah
12/15/20112:33:05 AMWednesday RavenJin Sang 吳her lost
12/15/20112:33:18 AMWednesday RavenJin Sang 吳she will always do the same thing i guess until she learns......

My Good Memories of xy

2011-12-14T13:35:00.000+08:00

Well.....Thinking of the things that what I have went through.....Good to have lots of good memories....and sometimes, they linger back to my thoughts .....Just Amazing =')

First, THANK YOU POTTER & SHIOMARU for the awesome sharing. My deepest apology and friend hug to you always for having to suffer all these years with the one you love that had to be forgotten. 1 year you took to forget her.....I hope mine can speed up fast..... =)

Well, things are clear now, and the person that I love most dear to my heart has finally turned into something that I wouldn't want to be with. But.....the memories of my love for XY (My First love journey together) , a girl I once knew from UK (not the girl who she is now,) ....was the women that I would have chosen among many and that.... I shall never regret. She is kind, joyous, outrageous, full of energy and always trying to help others even to someone who she did not even knew. Gosh.....That women....was the one that I would love for life.....Unfortunately, she has disappeared, consumed by something dark. The very person I love....will only be memories in my head.

Here is XY, the women that I fall in love with during my time in UK.... I've always called her Selina. XD

Our first date.....Lookout point & Mcdonald Taman connaught.......The fun and joy. I remembered my heart was pounding & pounding non stop. I was scared since it was my first time falling in love deeply and I was HAPPY for everything that took place.

boink boink on your nose ... XD

Making a fool of ourself for our first date =)

My salutation and always my love for you dear xy from UK. =') My heart feels so light and joyous, and full of energy just to remember that girl I fall in love with during that time....How I wish xy would come back or another angel like that =)

This is where She introduce her Best Friends to me. Our first time meeting all together at one familiar place.

My Good Memory of us fooling around in Danga Bay.

Johor Bahru & Danga Bay adventure. I remember waiting 5 days at her home just to spend 1 whole day dating with her. She was working and could not entertain me, but I guess it was worth it, It still stay strong in my head. No regrets =)

Our moments at my house. Lots of good memories. I watched her sleep as I could not.
The whole night I just watch her close her eyes and dose off. I sat beside her bed and waited for her to awake. No sleep for that night, overjoy to see her at my house for the first time.

Happy Valentines Day Dear xy / cum Sandra Wong. After this is where her transformation started taking place.

Gosh, Thinking back of all those time and memories....tears of joy rather than tears of sorrow. It warms my heart. =') My dear XY, You'll always be in my heart, the joy you gave me. I can remember it so well.

The Forgotten Dream....Depression.....Love...

2011-12-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

Depression, can;t eat, can't sleep, ....everything is in ruins. The love of my life was stolen by another guy, the women that I love with my whole heart deeply has leave an emptiness in my heart. The feeling of betrayal has gone so deep that now i do not know what to feel.

Efforts that i've put in for the past 2 years in this relationship has finally gone to waste. People that knew her of what she was, thoughts and objections from many whom I have also disregard and shut out has finally came true. The love that I've always dreamt of....became nothing but now a dirt of sands.

Hearts to love became hollow, Deep love that rages on became anger.....and here, I am to be blamed for that. It overwhelms me without even knowing.....that one day, I would lose everything, the one that has been in my heart for so long, one that has brought me as though I was in heaven, and one that was there when I was in need.

The tears never stopped for quite sometime now, even after I've witnessed the pursue of a man to obtain his trophy of stealing it from another, has finally became his triumph. The trophy I believe will not be his last, as what I have witnessed, seems to be pointing to the state that someday, things will go out of hand, an evil root that has link the very both souls to the ground, shall bear it fruits with bitterness.

Feelings, friends, and even relatives knew what I had to go through to make this relationship work, Every blood sweat and tears that I've plunder to keep the very foundation of the relationship to last, has finally crippled. Sacrifices became sands of time, and as time passed, so will the sands be nothing more but a fragment of dust.

The love that was beside me ....gone.......and i can;t stop crying everytime i think about it. WHY .....the question that always comes in my head ? Has she not seen the deep sacrifices ?? or only see from the very surface of nothing but a grain of sands above a plank.

Depression finally came.....Can't sleep, can't eat.....and even the thoughts of comiting suicide sometimes linger. I guess the love that was betrayed, can become a bitter monster for many.

My thoughts, my love.....my life.....has left me......abandon..........The cruel reality of life....has finally beaten me in utter defeat.

My love......will always remain in my heart for as long as I can hold on....until one day, When an Angel finally comes and forgive me for my deeds and sow a new seeds of love into my soul......

Till then.....Let the flow of life take me for now.....

2011-09-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

It's nice to see many friends out there are having a good time with their buddies, and some with their best of friends. It got me thinking, do i have any of those "Best friends" ??

Had one before, but time changes a person, and yeah, he changed a lot and so i had to move on. Now I feel kinda lonely once in a while where secrets and thoughts in mind that I could not share with are often difficult. I can definitely say that my best friend is Sandra of course (my girlfriend), but a best friend where i can share a man to man talk with, seems like I have non to think of.....or perhaps i do, but i maybe i just don;t realise......

Wee.....New Racket coming to town....

2011-08-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since I was pretty excited about buying a new stuff, I mean, you work hard, you play hard.....thus you spend hard as well on the things that you want the most, and I guess I really love that feeling very much.

Well, wait no further, my new coming badminton racket.....Wee ! WHICH IS GOING TO COST ME RM 650 !!!!!

Managed to find a good dealer in Connaught for this, not to mentioned, a nice young lady badminton coach who is willing to help me out a bit in asking for a good price. Heard she is also from the same batch with Lee Chong Wei. Awesome !

P.S, this racket is also used by Taufik Hidayat

Well, just hope it comes soon !!! Can't wait to test it out.

Dead

2011-08-01T01:10:00.001+08:00

This blog is dead .

The End
hehe

Past Memories....

2011-04-26T00:55:00.000+08:00

I've changed. i admit that.......There's a long list to say,but only one i can think of at the moment that has been in my heart for quite some time...... Finding a moment where i can truly dream !

I'm sure everyone has a dream, and what i'm talking about is a dream that most of what we see here in today's world does not exist at all. Let's drop the feeling of being in reality for a moment. Let's just forget about those chores and commitment that we are bond too. Let us forget just this moment in time.....of what needs to be done next and what we are currently doing..... Think and wonder, have you ever found that very dream that you love to do so much when you were just little...??

Like, being a superhero ? or saving a princess ?

Or being an adventurer in a world filled with magical beings ?

...

Or a quest / journey to discover the essence of life or an adventure into discovering the unknown?

I did and still remembered fondly when being little, i would wait for an anime cartoon to show in TV early morning when i was 15. i remembered feeling the adventure the characters in it goes through. i remembered what it was like when you wanted to do something so badly but could only be dreamt and envy upon. I even thought that Lepricons exist that i would wait for a rainbow to appears and try to chase it but couldn't.

Now all that remains is reality that i had to go through everyday, and even coming to a level of thinking about people cosplaying, or dressing up is a joke or even watching cartoons are just not fun anymore. I hope i have not turn into one of them outside there where such thoughts lies in most of our reality goers, because i would not want to. BUT one thing i do know....i still do feel how it was like, loving and believing the existence of what was dreamed and felt like in our own fantasy and imaginations. Its our continue belief that brought it to life, the fastasy within you. Anime has been a part of me since small and it will be no matter what. Fantasy is part of my life, and no doubt i have been turning it away, but i guess...i still miss them. Its always good to bring them back once in a while, i guess it has been and always will be part of who i am. =)

Studying~~~

2011-03-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

Can't believe i'm back to studying again, from once i came, i never like studying. Gosh, i hate it everytime when it comes to exams period to put you on the test XP. Well, this time it is not like exams,but rather presentations and lecturing. BUT BUT....I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE I'M STUDYING AGAIN !!!!

Introducing The books, mathematics and business sort a like knowledge required for the presentation tomorrow >.<

Took some pictures for fun....just wanna express it all out...~~

Well, In the end, i just hate exams....cause you brain cancers and total shut down at times......Don't you agree ?? xP

Signing out....Cheers =)

2011-01-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

I'm bored.......Yep, i know your...it's 12.15 am in the morning and still .....just lingering around........
Well....anyone wanna keep me company ? =)

NEW LAPPY !!!!

2011-01-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

Wee !!!
I finally got my first EVER NEW LAPTOP. All these while i have been using second hand / used laptops from my father and then passed on to me. Now for the first time, i got my very own laptop ! XD

Best part, it has good specs (well, sort of.....

Intel core i7 -Quad core
ATi Graphic card 5470 HD model

So games, here i come !!! XD

It has been quite a while since i've blogged, and yes, i'm gonna post a lot since i've got my very own laptop, so more posting soon.
Working life has been more stressful then ever, and good news, i've been coping up better day by day, and i believe one day, it all will pay up. I always believe in life, there is balance, balance in things that happen and decisions we make. Sometimes we tend to play with luck, and try to "shaken up" the balance a bit by doing things that are risky, but with better outcome..... safer ways, but slower pace......How i wish sometimes life would just give us the 80% pros and 20 % cons rather than 50-50.

Somehow the universe seems to have it all planned out for us.....
I'm sure some of you have experienced when you took a steep step, you were bound to pay the price of doing so, like trying out your luck in an interview, or acting in a short film, or doing narration for the broadcasting side and all. To some, on that very moment, you failed in an attempt that could have brought you higher. You embarrassed yourself, you showed people that you were not as capable as they thought you were.....These are the things that many i'm sure faced in life. One thing was certain, IF you managed to learn from it, it wasn't a waste, BUT if you failed to learn from it, then history will repeat itself again and again. It is as though the universe wants to take you higher but if you tend to get stuck in the same problem, it comes again and again.

So there i was (self confession), faced the music again and again upon the same mistake i made, until one day where i realized that it was all happening again and again. After taking a different step / approach, it changes the situation and best part, it changes me !
Even Thomas Edison AndAlbert Einstein once said a similiar quote that shares the same meaning

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."

Thomas Edison wasn't a school favourite, and failed approx 10,000 attempts to get a single light bulb(his invention) to work, and when the time he found it, it finally pays off all his hard work. He became a well known scientist / or shall we say, hero ? =)

I just hope one day all these hard work and endless effort put in pays off. =)

Doooosh....

2011-01-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

What's the word when you faced shit pouring in your face......Erm...yeah, i got it....FUCK !!
Yeah, starting this new year, will be pouring and loading lots of shits in the blog to share and release my stress here.
Since pretty much lazy to update everytime in a nice way on every post, might as well spill some dirt here and hope it doesn't come out in reality =P (also giving me the reason to update my blog more often ) !

So let's start, first, no more cosplay for this year...or shall we say, limit it....prefer to cosplay with my friends rather then some new group, been there and done that, found lots of problem unless i know them or they are capable in some way.

Second, lots of fucked up stuffs of time management and taking care of my gf. This is seriously taking lots of my self...and yeah, got to really lose out some weight in hobby and selftime. >.<

Third, paintball rocks....but it doesn't if the team doesn't work well together nor the spirit is there. Adding on, firing of words to others anytime and showing off to be directing others in a game without me knowing you or acting cool.....seriously, thank you for the coaching....but if your doing it just to act cool....then all i can say is...fuck off! i prefer to learn myself, my way rather than yours.

Others than that....kudos to those who are doing well ......=) happy for you, but now its my turn....and no more Mr. Nice guy.....

Cheers^^

Cosplay Plans

2010-12-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

Cosplay plans are finally coming in.....

Got lots of cosplay list to furfill to both me and everyone else.
Well, if i can rememeber them.....let's see

1) Joker from Noa Circus Arch - Owe this plan to Arisa
2) Fruit Basket - Shigure Sohma
3) BlazBlue - Jin Kisaragi (Really looking forward to this one for the awesome costume)
4) Trinity Blood - Abel Nightroad (This character freaks me out as it will take lots and lots of planning + Time to get the costume right >.< ).....but if it works....WEE !!!! XD
5) Fate Stay Night - Assassin
6) Gensomaden Saiyuki - Genjo Sanzo(Always wanted to do this for a long long time already XD)
7) Bleach Cosplay of Byakuya and Rukia + Photoshoot with Tian Tian Tian XD
8) Sugo Chara - Can't seem to remember the name....opps...sorry =P Owe this one to Ryukku and hope to do this
9) Gundam 00 - Hallelujah, Owe to Cappy, Audrey for this plan =)

Well, i hope i have listed it all down XD
Overall, All this cosplay plans are definitely planned for the coming 2011 !!
Hope that things will be smooth and nice for the coming year ahead ! XD

Cheers^^

Cosplay Mania lost~~~`

2010-10-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since i've cosplayed nor even went to a cosplay event. Things have changed, and cosplay friends have been lost or have not been contacted for so long until we have not even spoken for some time. The feeling of friendship changes as well, and i hate that feeling.

Also, just posting this up in my blog on my own self procrastination on my costume ordering and measurement. I guess i`ve let a friend down and i felt so bad in doing so..... >.<
Maybe my cosplay passion has finally died off?? i dunno, but one thing is certain....i have definitely not been putting enough attention or focus on cosplay in which it has taken its token in a way that how i wish it hasn't turn this way.

I guess it is true when people says that a man who takes on everything, faces everything, and one of them is managing your hectic and full schedule hobbies in which i have put myself into. I just wish that i could make it all good for me and everyone around. A hobby is something in which we enjoy doing and also being with people around to make friends and to take our games a new level.

I MISS MY OLD COSPLAY FRIENDS, it feels as though it is not the same anymore, and friends that i know off seem to have forgotten me or may have been forgotten >.<

my sincere apology to Jacqueline Lavena for not getting to costume in time, and also for not following the plans that you have planned out. sorry sorry ='(

Soon to change on these challenges,

Cheers, i'll give it my best shot ! =')

Journey To Familiar Lands

2010-08-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

IT's MALACCA !!!! XD

Its been awhile since i've ever lay my feet on the land of the ever growing historical place in Malaysia. Memories of the past and my time of growing up pass by as i remember them little by little in my head. Well, the reason i came back to Malacca is because i was assigned a task to train my customer on how to use a Point of Sale system, Treach 6 cashiers and 3 supervisor / management people on using a computerised system....and yeah i know it sounds technical and boring-----> in lay men's term, train people on using a computer business software.

Yep, lots to learn and lots of presentation coming up for my job scope. There are times that i remember how difficult it was, and times where it overflow with joy in teaching and doing presentations for others. How great that felt ! ! XD

Anyway, The bits and pieces of my memories are coming back, but fading as i felt rather lonely and a miss in knowing that i may not be able to bring those good times back before i was young back to where it can be right now. The sweet times with our long and huge family together, our time together where we all had fun playing cards, eating up the BBQ serving, and fill up our thrist on bottles of gas drinks. Ahhh....those were the times, and now as we start working, people judge another, and people put a gab / wall between one another to protect themselves, as so have i in order to protect ourself.

Gosh....i realy miss those times where everyone could just be themselves, be at ease of not judging another, and learning to be happy with the little bitterness should it ever exist and walk through it without knowing it ever existed.

I miss Sandra, i wish she was here with me in Malacca, having our sweet moments together. I miss UK, i miss
everyone ....and most of all....i miss my old life back then during when i was young.

=')

Tired

2010-06-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

Tired tired tired is the word. Lots of housechores to do.....lots of things to keep up with
1. Need time for myself to do the housework and also do some self check on things that needs to be done and kept
2. Long list of housechores to do ...cleaning, helping, maintenance ....and the list goes on
3. Camera maintenance.....formatting....etc...
4. Swimming pool clean up and maintenance
5. Keep track of GF to make sure everything is okay, but sometimes i got carried away in my housework due to much of callings and all in the house....can't be in 2 places at the same time dear =)
6. Cosplay stuffs, check on it and see things that i need to clean.....lots of stuff needs to be clean
7. Re-decorating my room and tidy it all up....got to plan out how to put up some new shelf for my room to make it loook nice ! XD

......Hmm....doesn't look too bad, just hope that no one will give me more trouble than it suppose to be....then i guess everything will be alright ^^

Cheers =)

Tired, Yet full of past memories to remember....

2010-05-31T01:44:00.000+08:00

Just came back from a busy weekend as usual =)

Meet cosplay friends once again after months without any contact recently due to much of my lacking ability in my management skills as well as for newbies going into the working environment. Time and leisure splits apart for all....hobby are secondary or perhaps, even to the last part of your list. Time is precious, self dreams are plundered to a limit, and self ability to cope with the world changes.

Things change as we go into reality, where our lives of living in easy times and being with friends all the time changes, where other much more and heavier responsibilities ties in, and it makes you appreciate even more with the bond of friendship that you share and cherish.

I love being with my cosplay friends, they're crazy !! Yes they are.....and that's what give another person the meaning of life. =)

Normal people = normal results.
Outrageous people = outrageous results.

I truly support them, and love to share with them in my experiences in life itself, the past memories of how we enjoy each others company =)
God, how i would love to do that again.....yet responsibilities ties me down....BUT of course, things will change....time will tell....and hope will form.

A lady in a mud=

2010-05-30T01:23:00.000+08:00

Hmm....just write what ever i want....Well, let's see...oh, i've heard of people putting many different faces to suit the environment, the people and for the sake of their own social interactions around them. Many do that, but some do not, and some are sure to piss you off when they do. Take for example, giving a nice, smiling face to one, but to another, giving a gesture that tells you to ~~fuck off~~or "your not important at all" kind of face. Well well, somewhat, i won;t feel bad, nor fall to its trap, because the only thing i can see is that you are just shining your true nature to everyone, ain't that a bitch to show your ugliness all around. =P

If you think that you are eligible to judge people, think again....because your just equally opening up your ugly side to everyone. So all i can say is, i'm not gonna waste my time on that, i'll just watch the fruit turn bad and see it turn ugly

Such an example by wishing you happy birthday on your very special day and not paying attention to people greeting you nor even listening. Dis-Self respect and clear signs of arrogant sure glows out well. Please.....if you wanna do that, sorry lady, but its not going to affect me. I'm just gonna smile, because in the end, i'm not the one whose gonna lose it all.

P.S : go read some self improvement books, maybe you can learn to be a better human being. =P
lol, just thought of writing out what i had in mind =)

Confuse~~~

2010-05-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

I'm crying..... dunno why, just feel heart broken and it hurts. Listening to the song of the past, and also songs that brings out the memories brings its tears out without stopping.

Why can;t we just understand each other better ? why can't we just be happy just like before ? why do we always end up fighting each other until we've come to a stage where things are hard to change again. WHY ?? i just want to live with you in peace, serenity and live on a life of abundance and joy. Why does it have to come to the opposite when in times we cannot see through what we really are.

Dear lord, all i can say is please protect her from harm and danger, fear and doubt, give her strength and guidance to be someone better, give her what she deserves better in life. That is all i wish for. If it cannot come from me, i wish her with all my heart, be strong, be outrageous, live your life to the max, always smile, never drown in sadness.

I wish you good health, happiness and joy.

Keep Moving~~~~

2010-05-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

Time wait for no man,
A man changes as time moves on.....well, as everyone says, we learn to be strong, and to keep pressing on as the journey gets tough, the tough gets going.

My parents always try to guide me all the way as i face the world outside and i am grateful to them, the coaching, the teaching, and the challenges they've placed in front of me. In college life, i've faced them and see how ugly a person can be, how people can destroy another, and .....how a person can kill a man's spirit. I would admit myself, that i am no different in certain times where i'm become the very monster that i've promised myself never to become and in ways, it changes me and gave me a learning on seeing things in a whole new light. Yes, we've seen how it is as part of it shows in the very existence of our own college / uni life, the way of life, nothing but bits and pieces of the outside world that everyone will have to take up someday.

I pray to many of my closest and good friends, those to are an angel to help others, to always guide another and to always grow together to become stronger and be different to stand up tall. My gratitude and humble apologizes to those who i've hurt during my time with them. Please bear in mind, it was only a learning experiences, but hope never to keep them into your heart.

No one is perfect, but never to become a devil when the world changes a man.
you live your life as you know what is right, and what is wrong.

One thing that i have learn in tough times is that, WE'RE NEVER ALONE, It's just a matter of we reaching our hands out to another in helping or receiving.

The Gift you are is the gift of you reaching to another.....

I LOVE YOU ALL !

Time Goes By ......The Journey Of Discovery

2010-03-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

As time moves along, so does everyone else. Their daily routines, the ups and downs, the priceless moments and so forth.
Me....well, things has been meaningful, full of learning and patience in every step that is needed to face working life.

So as said by many, when we have finished our education and uni life, working life is going to be hell a lot more worst, and frankly speaking, i have to agree, but not all is that bad as it seems.

No doubt, less leisure and time for yourself because you'll be working non-stop . Learning in every step of the way, growing to be a man, and also earning a lot more than what you usually do during school time. So let's not point fingers and start being miserable of what we left out, but rather on what we are bount to face for the better. Bumpy roads ahead, needle in the haystack is some of the situation that we are going to face outside, but to look deeply, it will only teach us as we move along the journey of discovery.
I miss those times during in school, but i also hated it because i could not earn my own money.

A new experience starts as well after officially having a gf and it sure requires a person, or shall i say, A MAN that needs to be better than what he is in order to handle a relationship. I finally understand how is it like and especially to those who is already in a relationship, needs to be much better of a person than before. It bounts to teach us many things in life, and when things get ugly, you GOT TO BE THE MAN to handle those situation.

To be responsible for her cause and her feelings sure makes a person stronger in terms of patience, time management, communication, trust and love, but it is not all on us only that needed to be strong everytime, sometimes, we need our very own space of being in need as well. Human beings are fragile creatures and that is no strange to man as well. I love the feeling of finally being able to trust someone so dear to me, someone close that i know when things starts to fall apart, there is one person waiting to bring you up again.

And so, my thanks goes to everyone who has always supported me during in times of trouble, and also, thank you to sandra who is always there for me. ^^

~~Thank You~~

Awaken The Madness within.....

2010-03-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

On 19th Of December 2009, i did something that many would have thought that i was rather crazy to do so.

I wonder.... to what extend does my love for sandra reach?
Well, does driving down to JB all of the sudden on a late night plan to going home on the next day says it?
How about flowers, hmm.....roses to be exact, to express my sincere apology ?
Or how about spending on your hard earn cash, little that you have left on her for both the trip and the roses?

Took This picture in Manchester ! Love The Scenic views of UK

I wonder does all these count to prove ? or more is needed?
All I can say that life is interestingly complicated, yet it shows us that we are not just some sort of person that has no feelings for life, but rather running through our veins that what makes us human.
Our Heart beats fast as we met, our desire and feelings run deep as we look into each others eyes.

The Picture says it i guess....

I've made what you've always wanted or dream to happen, where you will see me eyes to eyes on a brand new day in your very first morning.

There's so much i want to say to you, but sometimes, words just escape from my mind .....and i guess, i was happy till i just wanted to sit and stay beside you without thinking or even saying anything. I just wanted to feel your heart beating.

Another Piece....Crushed !!! The Darker Side

2009-12-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

I guess the title says for itself. I'm really in a way where i cannot see things clearly now, all i see is just misery, pain and sadness around.

Even the feeling of going out with friends and all is just.....gone ~~~
I ask myself, should i carry on with this feeling or should i just "switch" to be the mean cold "Ming Hui" once again....i guess in the meantime to make myself feel better, i guess it is better to switch. [so called personality switch =P]

But to bring the other person back again....it will be difficult .....
Should i really become that person??

I'm confuse now ....After reading her blog , it makes me feel as though i should .
And after a phone call that even tear down the piece, i guess this time, i'm becoming even more heart broken and becoming more of a "emotion-less" person.

='{

2009-12-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

Things just get out of hand, and the worst thing that can ever happen is to let someone close to you take you down as well.
God, sometimes it just tires you out.......and frankly speaking, sometimes you feel as though you should just let them sort it out on their own rather then helping them anymore.

Well, anyways....let's look into the good things instead.....Cosplay ^^
I guess maybe i'll be coming back next year 2010.....and this time, with more on Byakuya. I just realise that i have never once did a good photoshoot for him.

Wow, This photo inspired me once again to take Cosplay photos !! XD [look at those eyes] lovely !!
P.S, not my photo, just took it from someone's blog ^^

Got to make one that is awesome !!! xD
Finally i have the spirit in getting back into my own hobby once again !! XD

Next to look into is...Photography !! xD
I got to polish up my skills, haven been doing any lately although been winning from "The Star" newspaper daily shots.

Finally, Redesigning my room since i never once like the furnitures that i'm using. Got to think of a new concept. xD

So 3 things i got to improve and expand =P
1) Cosplay
2) Photography
3) Re-designing my room

Hope to really do something great on those that i have listed down.

Cheers^^

~ Working Life ~

2009-12-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

My first day at work....haha,i guess it takes time to adapt into working life. 5 days a week.....until night time. Iguess sometimes you will miss the good old times where you can just relax and do things that you love to do by taking your own time. Now things are tight, time is of the essence and life as a student is nothing more but a mere dream now.

However, looking at the good side is that we are able do something and gain something in return such as learning new things, seeing people in a different view, experiencing the world and its spices of life.

First day at work, well nothing much to do until the 4th Day where datelines are coming in to be met AND my god, i've made myself sound like a fool on the phone where talking to the clients especially those who were in the top management. >.<

Sandra, aka my beauty queen told me that "they will never remember because they are too busy, and of course we will make mistakes since we are new". Things take time and i felt so relieve after listening to her words. =) Sometimes......i just wish you were here with me, facing the world ! =)

it looks like i'm learning and got to be stronger than what i am now.....i cannot let others down and also i'll do it to make me, my family and "Her" happy.

Well....Stand up tall and hope that the world never gets to you.

"Let The Natural Essence and the energy of the Universe takes it course.....be positive and you will be given positivity in return". ^^

Cheers^^

~ Shadows ~

2009-11-27T19:12:00.000+08:00

The Word Shadows comes in various aspect....One can say that it leads to many kinds of understanding....such as form of expression, memories, past experiences, mystery, darkness and the list goes on....

Let's say it leads to Memories, things that you see again, a familiar gesture that you remember, will return if you have not finish what you have started. The Memories of pain and sadness tends to cloud our mind when all things are gone and hope is lost. Things that you love and cherish the most just leave, and you feel.....that you have fallen down on the ground, and sometimes .....it feels as thought that you do not want to get up anymore.

Shadows, it can also lead to happy and good memories that was once experienced...and now it is gone....
Well, one can say that for me, what i feel now is fear, anger, sadness, and even the hardest things that we "human beings" that most of us always tend to do, is avoid the truth, face it and move on.

For me, i see a dark shadows covers my hope and light and now i feel as thought i've lost something precious that was once happy and fruitful.

No doubt, it will remain there as we cannot change the past. BUT i know one thing in mind...."There is always hope" . I cannot do anything to change the past, but to learn from my mistakes, to be stronger, and be a better person.
Shadows will always return to haunt those who have not learn from their mistakes if it means so much to them, and although i have fall down flat to the ground for a day .....but it does not stop me from trying to get up again and have stronger heart and mind to be better than what i have fallen

"Why do we fall, .......So that we can learn to pick ourselves back up again" (Batman Begins, 2005)

A quote that i've always learn and honour it for a very long time even before it came out from the movie....I've fallen down many times in my life, but i'm still here, and i cannot and must not fall down to its prey. Nothing good awaits for those who falls down and remains there.

Conclusion, Shadows brings back the past, may it be good or bad, but one thing that we must bear in mind is that we are human beings, we make mistake no doubt, but what determines on what will happen next is what we plan to do in the present to change the future and we tend to learn from our mistakes and we move on to be better than what we are before.

I WILL CHANGE !! For the better.....

In every shadows, there is always a grain of light that will rise from beneath its cold plain

And when the times comes, you will see things in a new way and let the new horizon arises.....

~ Learning From Mistakes ~

2009-11-18T12:34:00.000+08:00

"Distance" love can be hurtful at times....either to one or to both side, and for me.....I've seen what it can and could do.

We had an arguement at night on the phone after my fault of making a terrible statement that i sometimes blaming myself all the time. After 2 restless and worries that cross our minds....i understand why it happen and what to do now.

Learn something new, just though of sharing....

1) Share - Things that cross our minds, even the slightest gesture of something that one of us do wrong, we must share it out. Worst case, if we keep it inside of us, it may tend to grow and grow, in which may destroy both of the person's trust and possibly hurting the relationship in the end. So it comes to this point....

Share = Both take the pain, and in time, it dies off and possibly a solution to overcome those problems that we both face. OR at least not one person alone take the pain, but 2, to ease down the impact.

DON'T Share = One take all the pain, in time, it grows and finally burst out, hurting the other person in an extremely emotional state, and finally hurting both party and the entire relationship

2) Respect - Learn to respect the other person, especially the ones you love / like a lot, sometimes in relationship, they demand respect and in return as adults, we have to learn to understand what the other person truly feels and respecting them in the way they want. A simple gesture such as wanting people to know about the relationship is important as it matters to the other partner.

3) Selfish / Desire - In relationship, sometimes we got to be selfish, and not thinking wholly about the other person's well being all the time in which in the end, abandoning your own desire and wants and needs in order to bring ease to the other. YES, IT IS a very good thing to care for the other, but not to a level where one of the partner hurt own self to a level until it causes emotional and destructive state to the relationship. SHARE IT OUT and sometimes, you will be surprised that the other person might be willing to come and help you even though you might think it is not needed at that time. In relationship, compromising a llittle is good, but not too much until you tend to hurt yourself and then finally bursting out and hurting the relationship. The other partner is sure to listen and also to help you in ways that you might not imagine or expect. Trust, sharing and respect comes in together for both parties to make it work. =)

I message her on MSN in the morning to share a little more and i wrote these......

To me....i know you are someone special....and i'm not letting go

I want to protect you

I want to be the person who stand beside you in times of trouble

And there are times i might hurt you or instead do something wrong

Share with me and together we learn from mistakes we make ^^

My Message to you, my dear Sandra =)

No matter what, i will still like you, because that is who you are, and i know, there is something special about you.....like everyone, there is amazing things that people can do and in each and everyone.......

But i like yours the most, a very special soul. I just love who you are.....in which it is rare or hard to find in lots of people. =')

I know sometimes i make mistakes, forgive me,
I know you care a lot for me, as do i , although i do not express it much
because we both know, that both of us means something to each other
and also because, each of us matter to each other......and ......we brought meaning to each other's life

Cheers^^

~ Happiness To Many, But Never to me ~

2009-11-16T19:03:00.000+08:00

Well....just though of writing it out......Sorry if there are harsh, foul languages here.....

On 14th November 2009, one of the most happiest day to many, comes a disaster to me. It was my convocation day and well, things just get so out of place in which i thought that things would have gone smooth...

1) Dad could not make it for my convocation
2) Mom got lost while heading to my college
3) Mom got into an accident close to UTAR and KTAR
4) Did not take much pictures with friends AGAIN [both Diploma and now Advance Diploma level]since i got to go and help my mom with her car accident!!

I WAS SO SO PISSED ....mix of everything, Upset, Anger, Frust, Fear and the worst of all lord, DISAPPOINTMENT that my parents has given to me. GODDAMN IT !!!

It hurts to see people that you trust the most such as your family members somehow "betrayed" or failed to show up on your very special day just hurts you the most. It is as if someone close to you comes to you from the back, and stab you.

I guess maybe i'm being too selfish to think like that, BUT HELL I have my rights to think that way. BUT THANK GOD that my mom and my little sister is alright from the car accident. Just disappointment, disappointment and disappointment that run in my head most of the time on that very day.

To see myself alone, without any of my family members around, and to see your friends having their family members hugging and smiling, saying how proud they are to their sons and daughters on their graduation day, it just kill you somehow but also you feel happy a little to see something positive. I guess sometimes it makes me feel as though that i am not destine to enjoy the happiness that what it should be, as though i do not deserve them nor worthy to honour it >.<
[but then again, i've experience something that i can say, may be partially similiar to those who does not have any family members. I salute and my respect goes to those unfortunate ones]. I've felt what it is like and how it is like not having any family members to see and support you on your very special day. An eye opening experience, but a PAINFUL ONE IT IS ......

I did manage to get very few nice pictures, but not many, and in losing the opportunity to take pictures with my some of my friends or coursemates that we may never see each other again >.< JUST SO NOT FAIR !!
AFTER 4 YEARS, AND I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS HELL HOLE AGAIN??/ !! >.<

TWICE this has happen to me during my convocation in TARC where i did not get the chance to take some memorable pictures with my friends and coursemates.

However, there is one person that i would like to thank over here...She helped me to calm down, tried to change my perception on the way i saw things was going during that day, and also supporting me all the way even though i was in my upmost and lowest form of losing myself through disappointment and shame.
Sandra, MY SINCERE AND GRATITUDE GOES TO YOU .....You may not notice but you did help me a lot during that day, where i almost give up in taking my memorable pictures and trying to enjoy the moment with friends around, and you pull me back up even though i was already on the ground, down and as seem hope is lost. Shame and pain runs deep and i fear that it will haunt me for a long long time....but you were always there for me !!

I'll never forget this moment where you dressed up so nice just for my convocation, the support and love that you have given to me, and also the undying spirit of not letting me give up. I knew i was never wrong in seeing right through you, a kind soul and the pure intentions to help others. Reality haunts the very innocents of another somehow covers you in darkness and i have tried very hard to protect you from, but in worst case, sometimes i too fall down hard.....

TEARS RUNS DOWN DEEP but one thing to look into is that i am thankful and grateful in having someone like you close to me. =')

Now, my heart is filled with disappointments and discourage in facing reality now. ~~~~ I guess this may leave another scar that may haunt me for a long long time. ='(

='(

~ The Truth Behind Every Picture ~

2009-11-16T12:24:00.000+08:00

There are a lot of thing i want to say, but one i can think of is that me and my GF's relationship is currently remained uncertain to many ^^
If you have notice, her facebook pictures comes with her in nice places....alone....well, i can tell you this, it cannot tell what and who was behind the pictures as what she or shall i say, WE were doing in those places within the pictures....since not much people know about our relationship and it still remains a mystery to many ........we have to somehow keep it low and not spreading out words or so around.

Went to JB on 5th November to finally meet up since both of us miss each other so much....and i can feel that she really really wants me there .... so i decided to stay from Thursday until Monday to ease both of our desired heart ^^ This was a pretty rush plan as she kinda broke down a little on Tuesday and then i decided to faster head there to help her and also to ease down my worries of her.

Well, one can say that it takes lots of courage and guts to meet with another person's family, especially the one that you like / love and making a good impression ~plus~ being yourself to see whether it favours to their family members sure makes you feel a little "freak-ish" and scared. xD

Well, this is my story, and i guess it is a little too early actually to visit and meet up with her family member since me and her were only couples for a week =P

Heading to JB by bus xD

See, DIGI, Always the smarter choice

[Rainbow above the billboard] , possibly a good sign from god ?? xD

Went to "That's" Cafe ^^ [soudns funny, but decent place ^^]

Met New people, Sandra's Friends xD

Love the art work on the wall xD

[They are posing to act cool xD]

Sexy Sandra xD

Ming Hui And Sandra xD

2 Cute girls xD

Always been sending and picking Sandra back from her workplace during my time in JB ^^

Sandra: See Me EAT !!!

Now let me introduce her family members ^^.......

Sandra's Brother, Tiger Wong

Sandra's Mother, Miss Chaik

Sandra's Dad, Mr Wong

Well, Her little brother is not here in JB since he was busy having classes from TAR College.

I guess they are a simple, and nice family to be with....can see that Sandra is very very close with them and loves them a lot. Eating together most of the time during lunch, spending time together a lot, that's just so cool!! ^^ ,Its just nice to see good things coming along ^^

Had Our Dinner At V-Co Cafe...Quite a good place ^^

This one looks cute .....BIG Eyes which she rarely do xD

But of course, i love her small sharp sexy eyes as well xD

It does not matter if your black or white [Michael Jackson song] xD

Like this shot....very natural and decent ^^

Here, we finally manage to spend some time together for 1 whole day on Sunday since she is always working from Monday - Saturday, in which i only get to see her during the night. Morning, we get to have a nice breakfast together, thanks to her mom on taking us to a nice "Dim-Sum" place ^^ I LOVE THE FOOD THERE XD !!

She is so hungry until she started eating the fork xD

feed me, feed me xD

Her mom as well happily eating with us xD

Later in the night, we head out to both Jusco in JB for our dinner at "Kirsahi" [A japanese restaurant since she loves japanese food xD] and then to Danga Bay to have our very last night together walking, and just letting time pass by as we be together, holding hands and enjoying the breeze of the night ^^

Colourful lady

The Dark Knight ^^

Shoot me when i tengah makan >.< =P

Manage to capture the storm from far away as it shoots out its fury across the clouds.....

HERE WE TRY SOME CRAZY AND FUNNY FACIAL SHOTS FOR OUR LAST GOODBYE !! ^^

So cute, her eyes close xD

And i guess where happy moments comes, there are times that it must have an ending, and so, i head home on Monday morning saying out last goodbye.....

~~ THE END ~~

Interview Interview ....^^

2009-11-11T10:30:00.000+08:00

Wee.....Got an interview today 11th November 2009 at 3 pm .....so got some things to prepare ...

1) my resumes and my certs
2) what to wear
3) study some of the company's background
4) study some of the interview questions just in case
5) find out where is the place !!!

Gosh, finding the place is what i worry the most as we all know, Malaysia is kinda big, and going places about is always hard to find the right target when traffic and maps, signboards are kinda little off . =P

But then again, it is exciting!! ^^
Wish me luck ^^

Cheers^^

The Shadow covers the light

2009-11-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

Finally Back from JB....another good memory to put into my blog ^^
I guess i'll be putting it up in my next post since now i'm tired and it is getting late as well ^^

Another reason for me to post is because today something went wrong. I dunno why all of the sudden she was crying. Before this, we had a phone call together and then after 2 hours, she started crying all of the sudden..... seems pretty serious and also one that irritates me is that she feels as though she cannot tell me what is the reason behind her sadness. >.<
She told me that "she dunno how to tell" ......i guess maybe it is difficult to explain....i understand that, but if you do not try, then will it help you if you keep the problem to yourself and not sharing it out???

Tell me tell me.....why take all the pain alone when you can share them with someone close to you and help you out of the bitter darkness rather than leaving them behind and waiting for it to haunt you again and again......worst case, as you have already went through lack of sleep these few days, and i fear that the effect might take it course greatly with the added "sadness" and not sharing it out when i try to reach out.....=(

Trust me as much as i have trust you ......

Well....just thought of blasting it out all here in my blog >.<
just wanted to express it out since

NO cheers this time....not this time >.<

JB....Here i come !!~~~

2009-11-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

Well, the title says it all, just wanted to see her in JB, so decided to take a trip down to JB Tomorrow [Thursday] and will be back on Monday ^^

Yesterday me and her had a "good" discussion on what are some of the problems we "foresee" or so called confusion and it finally came to a conclusion of over-thinking, negative thoughts...... and finally, clearing out the confusion that lies within me. I guess i was thinking too much and also listening from her on some of her comments about the confusion that was running through my head finally clears it out.

I guess it is human nature to worry for the ones you like / love......the fear of losing them, or even to a level where our minds play tricks on us by "foresee-ing" things that does not bount to happen such as fear of losing her, problems to come and so on. [A challenge that i have promise to overcome, and i shall] ^^

Well, one of the solution for me in overcoming these problems is by thinking how beautiful, lovely, kind and "SeXy" she was during our time in LJMU, UK. Imagine what length and struggle i had to go through just to finally be with her....and that just makes me feel .....LUCKY!! and grateful =')

Looking back at photos as well was another way ....and here are some of them that i love to see .....

First time she comes into our dorm....god it brings back memories ^^

Sometimes just by seeing her smile or laugh....it warms you up ^^

During our assignment time together ^^

I love it when her hair falls down ^^

Act cute, act cute !! xD

What a coincidence, 2 girls in red, 2 guys in grey [See derique wearing grey shirt inside] ^^

End up both became couples ....Is this called "fate" ?? lol xD

These were the times i spent with her, and it just takes me away....but i just could not get close to her as she was firm in standing to her ground of not ever finding another boyfriend. I guess it took a hell of alot of guts, and expressing what i had inside my heart to finally be together with her.

I guess this post does sound selfish......but i'm just recalling all those good memories and always trying to be grateful for what i have been given....AND ONE OF IT IS YOU !!! =)

Sorry if i ever do sound selfish.......

I guess maybe i have to learn to be stronger in heart, but i fear that it might destroy what i have fought so hard to gain.

This is one of the best picture i've loved ......She's a bully !! xD BUT SHE'S DARN HOT !!! xD

~~ Her New Music Album Cover ~~

like the picture above, I believe there is something hidden deep within her heart, a conflict that was never once settle until now....i just got a feeling of that. Guess we'll find out soon ~~~ ^^

Cheers^^

I'm Missing You Like CRazy

2009-11-02T13:32:00.000+08:00

I'm Missing her like mad now....but i've always told her and to myself.....It is a challenge, and a good challenge it is.There is a reason why it happens, and one thing that i am sure of is that it makes us miss each other even more and not to a level where we will feel just 'normal' or nothing is felt at all.

"The Harder The Journey, The More Golden The Fruit Bears"
'All it takes is just pure intentions to make it through'

AND THAT IS MY COMMITMENT TO YOU !!

There are times where i might fall,
There are times where you might fall,
There are times where reality takes over the best of us,
Let us not fall to its prey,
Reach out to me, Reach out to each other,
And face the challenges that lies ahead.....TOGETHER

Not alone, nor in a desperate state of loneliness,
Stand beside me,
And let's overcome it together.....

I told myself that if i take this road, it will be extremely intense and bumpy one in which until now, i have never regretted. The fruit sure does taste good, but of course, it is still bumpy where distance and missing each other just makes you go crazy sometimes.

I just love to see her smile, and god by looking at those pictures and thinking about how hard i have to overcome just to finally be with her.....

I'M ONE LUCKY GUY !!!!! XD

i remembered....our sharing and lovely chit chatting for hours almost everyday

She's so cute with the white Headset !! xD

Gosh....What can i say....Lovely =)

In Deep Thoughts ~~~ =)

Sweet and nice, love the new shirt ^^

That's Me !! The Super Leng Chai xD

The Beauty of City lights and an elegant and beautiful women awaits .....

Cheers^^

2009-11-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

UNFORGETTABLE 22nd BIRTHDAY !!

Wow, i was really touched and happy to see familiar faces and family celebrating with me on my 22nd Birthday !
Well, let's get things organised here...and simple

1) On 27th October 2009, approx 10.30 pm, i was no more single , and finally found someone to share what i felt deeply, and it was really really one of the happiest moment in my life !! [close to my birthday as well]

2) With around more than 100 Birthday messages from friends, close one and even more in facebook, i was really really touched and deeply happy, and my blessings and gratitude goes to all of them ....sincerely from my heart [my facebook is filled with birthday messages xD xD XD]

3) 2 birthday celebration,
- on that very day with some of my trusted and close coursemates and with someone special at my house, with lovely scenery and with some alcohol around, sure hyped up things a little to enjoy the moment.....and also a surprised birthday cake =') [28th October 2009]

ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY ^^

As usual, Selina always looking hot ^^

Nicholas Tse and Selina xD

Ganas ganas

Jia Teng And Wei Sin ^^

Derique and Sook teng xD so cute ~~~

Selina and Ah Yin xD

Derique And Wei Sin xD

A surprise cake party xD

Ming Hui and Shiang Yi xD

Derique and Sook teng xD

Erm....Friends offering food and wine for my birthday ?? xD

LOL, really funny and nice people xD

The 6 Crazy people xD

One BIG Happy Family ^^

The Final Crazy Scene xD

- Halloween celebration with my closest cosplay friends from Team Himitsu and with a surprise birthday cake sure made me felt really like home, and with good friends =') [31st October 2009]

Delicious Cupcakes made by Mashimaro / Cutiepie !! xD

Sadly, my name made from Shio >.< WHY WHY WHY ?? !! xD

Dinner time !! xD

Shio's going high ! xD

Nyam nyam xD

THen gila gila

Cutting Pumpkin lesson taught by Shio

Aster also cuba cuba xD

Rayray wants to kill someone on Halloween night xD

Kaien Cross and Sayori [a.k.a Yuuki, my daughter's best friend] xD

Father and Daughter xD so cute !! xD [Kaien Cross Huggie Yuuki Cross]

The 4 Pumpkins For Halloween

Group Shot !! xD

Funny Faces shot !! xD

Shio

Rayray

All in the water !! xD

Father throws daughter in the pool !! xD

THROW !! xD

Birthday Chocolate from the cake xD

My Birthday on Halloween night =)

I AM GRATEFUL AND MY SINCERE BLESSINGS GOES TO YOU ALL FOR SHARING THIS MOMENT WITH ME !!
IT WILL BE A MEMORY THAT I WILL CHERISH IN MY HEART ALWAYS !!

Cheers^^

2009-11-01T16:10:00.000+08:00

27th October 2009 [~~~An Unforgettable Moment...~~~]

I see Hope,
I see a part of dreams turning into reality,
I see what others dreamt of gaining and finally having,
I see courage,
I see a heart full of love ....And finally taking steps in reaching out to someone who really matters.....

It was an experience that i can never forget,
Courage, commitment, expressions, passion, sincerity and honesty to finally felt what others have done in which i could not do for years. It opens our eyes to a new horizon and new things to learn, experience, feel and even live for.

Through the misty hills, through a little rain, and finally through the beautiful sight of city lights and only you and me beside each other....That was just so .....romantic and that really felt like life !
God, i missed all this sort of good moments and sweet experiences in life during my time in school without knowing >.<

A friend told me "you really look happy now, different from last time" .....i did not realise that....and then thinking back again and again.....well maybe they are right ^^ (well, not entirely but yes as well) ^^

When someone that you felt was close to you comes into your life, things just gets better and better , and it feels good !! =)
Me message to someone special.....

YOU BROUGHT COLOUR INTO MY LIFE!

You gave me a helping hand when in times of needs,
You always knew i was either in trouble or in peace,
You always knew what i was thinking,
You were always concern of what i was feeling,
You were ALWAYS THERE FOR ME !!

I hope as much as you have done, so have I in return to you....i know you know ^^

there are promises that i cannot give or do, but i'll still try no matter what. Nobody's perfect, but that does not stop us from trying because "if we do not try, how are we to expect things to happen when there is no action taken" ^^

My very first intense romantic date, very first kiss and very first time seeing her once again just fills you up !

Cheers^^

SICK

2009-10-23T00:20:00.000+08:00

Oh god, what can i say,
1) Head spinning around
2) Upset stomach where anything i eat feels as though i want to vomit
3) Feeling hot and cold instantly everytime, thus sweating alot
4) Missing someone a lot until i cannot sleep other than feeling sick....

Well, These are the things i have in my head, and it hurts >.<
WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL AS THOUGH I WANT TO PUKE !!! >.<

But before that day of getting sick, i did ate an unknown packet instant noodle and my guess it is the cause of my sickness....

Well, other than mentioning about my sickness, a friend of mine feels guilty on herself for the cause of my illness as she believes that i fall ill was due to our long and late night chats /sharing almost everyday ....and i have this to say, it is not your fault, and i DEFINITELY HAD A GREAT TIME sharing and chatting until 5am in which we promise to end our conversation around 2am xD
One that i will not regret in getting to know you better as you have stolen my heart and in giving ^^

don;t feel guilty, because it was worth it ^^
There is so much to share, so much to talk about, and i love every bit of it ^^

It's A busy busy world ......

2009-10-16T04:00:00.000+08:00

Well, i've return back from UK recently and yeah, things have changed quite a bit here during my absent,mix but in a good way if you look into it ^^

1. New car [New Perodua Viva]
2. New 40 inch TV set, fully Digital Fulll HD xD [finally get to see movies in big screen] xD
3. One of my hamster pass away [it was suppose to pass away earlier since it was already pass their life span] =(
4. New Surround System
5. New Camera xD [~~lovin it~~]

And somethings that you feel as though it is back once again, but a little difference that made you feel that it takes time to adapt and finally getting settled in to your own home. ^^

I have to say, after returning home for 6 days, things have been hectic once more, house chores especially and listening to my parents to tell me what to do at times, in which i kinda miss what i had during my time in UK, where freedom and your decision lies with your action and judgement, rather than to them. I guess when we were bound to a lifestyle that we were so used into, once we start stepping into reality back, it just takes time, and i'm pretty sure that some of us, or shall i say, majority felt that they miss what they could do during their time in UK. ^^

There's so much to do, and yeah, haven been sleeping well for days due to several reasons,
1. Jetlag, takes time to recover
2. When you miss that person so much, it just gets you thinking of her, but yeah, that's the challenge that is faced upon me =)
3. Cousin's BIG Birthday Celebration [ Helping with Design and Photography] kinda like doing PR job
4. Endless HouseChores and Friend gatherings....well, all i can say is that it is tiring, and with dedicated hard work, it sometime pays off ^^

End here.....tired....tired.....

DAY 2: Conquest Of Europe

2009-09-25T07:54:00.000+08:00

DAY 2 : First day, feels great to enjoy a nice cabin.....Amsterdam sure is cold and freezing in the morning, got up, get ready and head for picturesque Dutch fishing and cheese village of Volendam. First stop at the Cheese village of Volendam where we were given a tour on how they make cheese ^^ One of another attraction was that they also demonstrated on making the wooden shoe that the people used to wear, and the shoe maker was really really strong, i mean really strong, using a "saw" like cutting tool to show us how he cut the shape of a shoe that easily with just his brute strength. I can see it needs a lot of strength to cut/ saw the wood as it is rather thick, but looks wet as mention by the show maker himself, thus making it easy to saw i guess ^^

Took lots of photos, i guess the pictures will tell the story for itself......
[Please be advised the pictures are not edited, what you see is what you get directly from my camera] >.< Lazy to edit and also to leave it natural ^^

Me and A Dutch Lady, picturesque Dutch fishing and cheese village of Volendam

3 Orang Gila From Malaysia !! xD

Group Shot ^^

The Man that makes the famous Dutch / Holland Wooden shoes

Want one ?? Please buy....we'll get commission ^^

Hmm, this is cute ^^ and sexy eyes LOL

Cheers Everyone, Free wine from the tour around ^^

All Hail To The King And Queen ??? Lol....

To all MAN'S out there, THINK TWICE before finding a lady !!! LOL, joking ....

The Windmill was one of the places that i cannot forget. It reminds me as i was a small kid once, i always look the windmill as something that represents peace and serenity of clear and distant lands across the barren beauty.

I love the Windmill ^^

Head to Volendam where we were toured to their diamond shop, some over 40,000 Euro for each and so on, The beauty of diamond and its carving which does not interest me personally, but maybe to the ladies i guess [ diamond is girls best friend] xD

Diamonds are a Girl's best friend

Later, we head for the scenery taking pictures and the food !! The fish was really really fresh there, and it surpass Whitby in it;s style of cooking fish!! xD one that was worth the try, around 3.50 euro if i was mistaken ^^ WORTH IT !

The Beautiful Port Dutch fishing and cheese village of Volendam.

Kumiko And Sandra Posing For Malaysia's Next Top Model !! xD

The Famous Fish Cook to perfection from the fresh catch ^^

Kumiko loves Ice-Cream no matter what xD

Next for Amsterdam City center, me and my friends head for Red light District and a Canal boat ride that shows pretty much of Amsterdam, but to my taste, nothing spectacular. Red light district was something new to see, lots of sex toys and related stuff that attracts you [ unfortunately, not the girls in bikini's looking for men, not my taste i guess =P ]
oh yeah, no pictures inside Red Light District as i heard that if we try, the next thing is that people will find an arm or a leg in the river of those cheesy photographers like me =P

Boat Ride within the Canal's of Amsterdam ^^

Sook Teng playing with the swing swing xD

Lai Teng ^^ [at Amsterdam]

Me ^^ [at Amsterdam]

Finally take a picture with the big word I-AMsterdam.

Say Cheese And jump !! xD / A stands for Ah Kuah's !! xD LOL joking

Finally we decided to have a mini-photoshoot close to a man-made small lake and here it is .....

Practicing with our acting skills xD

Wow, First time saw lesbian's in Amsterdam xD

So called "LOVE": well, back to this topic, on this day, this time i manage to take a lot of pictures with "her", and it really gives me a message as though there is hope and as though that she likes me and her in return. She wore a long sleeves stripy shirt that i always admire and it definitely suits to her style in that. Really suits her taste and mine =P . Within Volendam fishing Village, i manage to take a nice portrait photo of her and myself separately, but by looking back in the photo of her solo shots, i do see her as a beauty queen in which she keep denying that she does not look like what i have mention. Either she demands more of people praising her or she does not see what i see....i wouldn't know to be honest. I guess we are just human being, where demands of attention and the needs of social comfort is always needed as we are not robots, but humans, where a need of socializing and in the need of being needed and in need is always there.... ^^

I like this so called " Couple Shot" the most......although during that time, i truly wished that it was really happening in reality together as what we see right here....

Man, why do i always kena bully by women !!!! >.<

DAY 1: Conquest Of Europe

2009-09-25T00:47:00.001+08:00

A 15 days conquest journey in Europe
Well, this trip i was first introduced by one of my LJMU friend, Sandra, and from there, after several days an making the decision of either going for this trip or not, i've finally decided to go. Some may ask, why take a few days to decide on such thing when you can only take a few hours. Well, i do have a good reason, one is that because i was given a last minute green light to go for the trip, in which it was the most crucial and hectic period for my LJMU course, 5 assignments almost in a week time !!!! >.< so making a fast decision was rather difficult........

DAY 1 - well, it all started with the groups gathering at hyde's park in London, close to Park Lane and MayFair, London's wealthy places ^^
It was a double decker bus and i did manage to get on the second floor of the bus, and best part of it, right in the front, nice view of the city and all, but the screen / window of the bus wasrather dirty, filled with bird's dropping! >.<
So pictures would not be as good as taken out of the bus.
From there, i met new friends like abby, Kun Wai, and more. First time seeing something weird where the the bus has to go on a train that will take us to the Europe border. BUS IN A TRAIN !!!! O.o never heard such thing before.....

Before heading out From London to begin our journey......

Inside the Train that takes Vehicles to Europe o.O [yep, the whole bus is inside the train as well]

Haha, Told Sandra that if she open her eyes big big, she will look really cute !

Reached Europe, our first stop was the chocolate factory where we were given a chance to buy Belgium's famous chocolates and from there, met the crew members in person. Nice people i can say, friendly and all ^^

Our First stop in Berlin Chocolate Factory ^^

Casey and Me, [Casey is always hyper ] xD

The Famous Berlin Chocolate Factory Manager

Need an Extension, Well, here they do have everything.....i guess xD [LOL, joking]

Group photo

Crew Members of Kelana Convoy

Upon arriving, we were taught on how to set up the tent, and well, lucky me, i got a first class cabin place and it was really really nice, 40 pounds for 2 nights with a nice kitchen, bathroom and a balcony, i was rather surprised myself ^^ . I only ordered a cabin room with a bathroom so that i could help my friends [Kumiko, Cui Fen, See Yun, Sandra and Sook Teng] to get a nice bath since in Amsterdam you have to pay 80 Cent for 4-5 minutes bath.....

Nice Sun Ray While heading to the Camp site in Armsterdam

Within Holland Rest Stop after the Berlin Chocolate Factory

Mr. Khairul, The Tour Manager that teaches us how to fold and set up out tents

Kumiko says that she wants to be a model, so here is the picture xD

Mr.Craig, our Tour Driver, was laughing when he saw Kumiko posing for my camera xD

Me and Sook Teng (Derique, don't angry ah, i just take for fun only xD)

Me and Sandra , Lady and Men in Black ^^

And This is Specially For DERIQUE !!! XD , i told Sook Teng to pose for Derique !!! xD cute or not ?? !! xD

so called "LOVE" : Well, really do not want to talk about this, but since this is my space, so i'll just go all out, and i guess not much people will be interested in another's love life =P [you can skip reading this part if your not interested] =)
Anyway, talking about this issue, well, i was really happy when i got to go on this trip with the person that i kinda liked a lot during my summer programme in LJMU. The feeling of her got way much stronger than i thought, but my intention to go on this trip was just for the sake of enjoying and exploring Europe, not for her to be exact. Sitting with her in the upper floor of the bus but not beside made me really happy.....but when it comes to the introduction time of few of the people during the journey to our first destination, Sandra was called out and one that made me kinda upset was when she was asked to call another friend, she called someone else but not me >.< Well...jealousy was strong during that time, but i guess it was my own weakness that i needed to overcome.

Well, That pretty much ends for DAY 1 .......
Cheers^^

The Era of Dynasty Ming

Busy weekend!!

Happy Chap Goh Mei 2012 !!

LAST MINUTE !!!!

Happy Hokkien Chinese New Year

Guitar Tunes

Another day ;)

Happy Chinese New Year 2012

A forgotten memory drops by

Stories & Stories

Sick....Fever

15th January, Another journey

Reality Rush XD

The Aftermath

The excitement Awaits !

Mission Complete

Goodbye 2011

Adventuring into the forest

Bad Times again....

*** Thank You *** Merry Christmas !!

My Journey .....

Rise

A little too not over you

Sleepless nights

Feelings.....

Busy-ing around......

Another adventure Awaits ! XD

Confessions of hearts through forgotten memories

Declaration of Love

Conversations Of Thoughts

My Good Memories of xy

The Forgotten Dream....Depression.....Love...

Wee.....New Racket coming to town....

Dead

Past Memories....

Studying~~~

NEW LAPPY !!!!

Doooosh....

Cosplay Plans

Cosplay Mania lost~~~`

Journey To Familiar Lands

Tired

Tired, Yet full of past memories to remember....

A lady in a mud=

Confuse~~~

Keep Moving~~~~

Time Goes By ......The Journey Of Discovery

Awaken The Madness within.....

Another Piece....Crushed !!! The Darker Side

~ Working Life ~

~ Shadows ~

~ Learning From Mistakes ~

~ Happiness To Many, But Never to me ~

~ The Truth Behind Every Picture ~

Interview Interview ....^^

~~The Shadow covers the light ~~

JB....Here i come !!~~~

I'm Missing You Like CRazy

SICK

It's A busy busy world ......

DAY 2: Conquest Of Europe

DAY 1: Conquest Of Europe

* Thank You * Merry Christmas !!

The Shadow covers the light